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studying is like playing a neopets game...but more challenging..LOL. i came to this realization last night when i realized that i finished 10 readings yest!! excluding e one that i did in e gs rm while waiting for matt's dad to fetch him home...i did 9 readings starting from 7pm while i watched hua yang shao nian shao nu and playing computer...LOL. and i rem e show also k..dun play play. then at 8...i off e tv...continued playing with my computer whilst reading all e way till 2.30am. after a grand reading marathon whilst eating choc, playing travian, playing neopets, blogging, blog surfing, having msn meetings, talking cock on msn with 10 conversations at a time and talking cock to rubin...after that 7.5hrs!! i did 9 readings too!! YEA! now i've to my surprise finished all e readings i have for poh's proj. total of 14 journal article/chaps from bks/pgs from honours thesis and 3 bks. now i just need to shrink it to 1500 words...throw in my own exp, own tots, own reflections, evaluations etc...and put in my own T dev model...and i'm done!!

it's really like a neopets game...i feel like i just levelled up on my studying game..LOL. killed 10 villians whilst collecting berries (keying in councilor contacts, briefing J on bazaars, talking to S abt GC, organizing thur's booth board making).

life is very fruitful (with berries)...and exciting (with killing villians).

YEA! level up level up. and i rem strange concepts from this proj tt i can use for 2 exams! LOL. now...if i cld just rem e bks/articles where i got them from...i cld use for LRTprog too...

jiayou gal!! level up level up!! 

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really really busy. this crunch time is no joke. besides sch work i'm crushed by GC, bazaar, ethe and PAH. all 4 have converged into this 5 days. i survived day 1! by skipping one lect. and finishing 7 readings for my proj. like gasp. and i fixed a PAH meeting and i wrote down my commitment for e wk..and of coz i played games...sigh. LOL!!

crushed by work. and realized tt i have volatile emotions which i cannot trust. i nvr noe when they will die. i need time i guess...

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LOL!! had a great time yest!! went for qi's bday party...and i saw someone who is e male version of me. but he is slightly crazier..and he manifests his madness in a diff way...like i will sit on a chair and start rocking left to right and laughing at myself?? he went ard with qi's camera taking photos of everyone. and he was just super funny..he will ask everyone for their names and how they got to know qi etc...i was e first to spot his gou zai dui (papparazzi..however u spell it) potential..so i told everyone!! after tt we all called him gou zai dui!! (see i so influential). then chong mommy was so irritated by him and ashamed tt they're from e same fac. super funny. but it made me realize tt i'm lucky tt i'm a gal. coz when i'm in my crazy moods..i am not irritating and 'qian bian'...but cute! ^.^.

then it was a nice gathering lahz..i finally saw sockling's bf who protested that their Vday dinner wasn't simple as described by sockling!! LOL. diff standards have revealed themselves. and it was nice seeing e bfrenders outside e usual setting..like kai had such a cool shirt...LOL. i like to touch touch e checkered cloth part...then she kept laughing.  then yah lorz...got to catch up with chong mommy..=). both of us been too busy to msn bahz. chong mommy was nice as usual and papabird also there..i intro-ed both of them...and i just love it when papabird is at buffets with me. coz i took quite abit of rice thinking i'm hungry. i took one spoon of it and found it bland..so i gave away 3/4 of it to papabird..LOL!! papabird saves me during buffets either by getting food for me or eating my food. wonderful pet. =D. then got to know some other new fren! also from computing. he's a super funny guy. like ou xiang ju kind...he has little expressions de (most of his expressions are in response to my male version's abhorring behaviour)..and doesn't really talk much. then finally nearer to e end..he warmed up a lil...we started at 6..he starting talking more at 10?? LOL!! and all he said were one-liners to suan me. like 'u shld stay in e washing machine', 'later u sit in e car boot' tt kinda thing!! or like 'i open e boot for u le..u can go in'..like wth!! LOL. 

yepz...tt's my exciting evening at qi's place. =D. happy bday my dear gal..i totally love u!!!! if i ever have a children's party i will invite ur mad fren. =D 

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hai~ it's very tiring to judge ppl by my standards i've realized. it makes me wonder why they do e most nonsensical and cock things. it's like...why didn't she think of doing that??? why e hell did she decide to do that??? like nonsense. like last nite...i finally cldn't take it anymore and decided tt if i wait and hint at S...she will nvr do what she shld have done so i did it myself and she smsed me to thank me...like weird. coz i just tot that it was e most logical thing to do which she didn't do. then today i woke up and got a weird sms from shan...asking us to meet 1hr earlier than scheduled so tt we can put e gift into a box and wrap it up...then she said tt it's in case ting is late. but i mean if e party is due to start 1.5hrs later...we just need to take bus for 2 stops and wrap a box...who wldn't be late??

anyway...in e quest for harmony yet, efficiency i will be bringing my laptop to key in councilor details..LOL. and continue thinking abt GC. maybe i'll finally start on one of my projs due on like 2nd march?? hai~

tiring. 

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met up with shan and yijing for a nice chat last nite..(yes..i met shan once again..)..this time we talked from 9pm to 12.30pm...3.5hrs only mahz!!  =P. anyway...many developments in yijing's life...which made me reflect upon my own. realized tt yijing has changed since her last visit...which was prob 2 or 3 months back..(she's studying in aust). she seems alot braver and more mature this time round bahz. and e most interesting thing is tt she got attached..congrats gal!! which was sth she really wanted for most of her life really...and after her laments abt no one wanting her..she found someone..=D. which is e happy part. and what kinda put me in a contemplative mood is tt e guy's malay. maybe it was e way she said 'he's not chi' that made me guess tt he's malay though any normal person will guess ang moh. but anyway...her dad totally disapproved and gave her e marry him and u are no longer my daughter ultimum. and she does have her own issues to deal with which e guy has yet to address...

but what really rocked me was that yijing went up to e guy whom she liked for 1.5yrs whom she thinks likes her and told him to either break it off with his gf and be with her or to continue with his gf and they will stop being frens. that was like woah. known yijing since pri 1 and i nvr tot that she would do that..tt's like 13yrs of frenship. so i guess tt last nite i saw a diff her. a very cool, heck-it, just-do-it her. but of coz i guess that this daredevil-ish attitude will be needed for e whole r/s to work out coz there's still e religion issue. hearing yijing talk abt e obstacles involved brought me back in time when i considered e very same issues and concluded that it was a no-go betwn me and Y. but yijing looked at e issues and felt that it was worth a try which is commendable. and little yijing is so brave!! LOL.

anyway...e whole scene was quite surreal last night really...it felt like a replay of e discussions i've had with frens abt Y..e key difference being tt i was a quitter and yijing is a stayer. and i felt then tt she will really have a tough time which i of coz did not mention to her given tt she's still in e honeymoon stage now although their honeymoon is achieved by ignoring everyone else ard them. e guess that she failed to foresee some stuff which may trip her..but now's not e time to point it out. but i guess tt she sounded ready to accept things if e r/s falls thru coz quoting her..after all she stole him from someone and it would be okie if someone stole him away/stole him back. i just felt that if e guy had stayed with his ex on-off for more than 1.5yrs..they must really have had alot going for each other. e past is an invisible enemy really.

but i do hope tt uncle accepts e guy..i have concluded tt parents are generally against chi-malay marriages.

anyway...besides e yijing saga, i announced my break to yijing who wasn't exactly shocked (befitting of her new cool image). we talked abt shan's future coz really it's so fast. she did a 2 yr psych course at jamescook uni and graduated with a bachelor 2wks back (while i need to slave for another 2 yrs). anyway...shan was feeling quite insecure abt her future bahz..and i felt e same for her. sometimes it's not too gd having parents who know each other. coz to cover up for e fact tt shan cldn't get into NUS/NTU...her dad told my dad tt she's going to do masters. so it's kinda like...she's having a tough time trying to get into hons yr even. coz of a stroke of bad luck. i think shan has wat i term e 'final-hurdle-bad-luck'. coz she always does marvellously until e final hurdle which was her 'A's and her requisite mods for hons yr. but she doesn't want to work yet..LOL..i think of e 3 of us..shan is e 'youngest' one in terms of her desire to face e real world and even in my sec sch clique as well. yijing is e one challenging e world, ting is e one venturing into e world...at least qi goes in for a while gets scared most of e time and gets out. shan just stays out..LOL. so shan's plans for e future including slacking and going to e night safari..which obviously will be an interesting topic for my dad to pursue with uncle..sigh. anyway shan will try looking for internships at a later time...which means long hrs and crappy pay but she says it's e best she can do right now..so jiayou fren!!!

anyway....i guess tt this new yr hasn't been gd for my 2 dear frens since one suffered e agony of talk on inter-racial marriages being e bullet train to hell while e other was bombarded with qns abt her future. i count myself and my 3hr CNY a luckier alternative. 

anyway...my prog this hols is really jam-packed...sun i'm meeting more pri sch frens for settlers/mindscafe. =D.  looking fwd to it. i promised shan tt we will reminisce e old days with me throwing stuff at LK..LOL. which was my hobby in pri 5 and 6 anyway. i wonder if he will start scolding me now..=D afterall...i'm sure he got over me! ;). pri sch crushes are so adorable. we discussed last nite and concluded tt when some guys like a gal..they will tease and bully e gal...so they accused me of leading him on by bullying him...like LOL!! but really..tt was almost 10yrs ago. i have accumulated gd karma since. e funniest part was tt we intro-ed him to e gal tt i bullied in sec 1 and 2. so it was like............a support grp for them..LOL. victims of trauma. and they still meet up now and then to go out!!! (part of my accumulation of merit). okie..enuf crappying...shall talk more on sun...=). after i meet up with my pri sch ppl..=D.

now..life will be perfect if i can get myself to start on my 2 projects due on 2nd march. 

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yea!!! feeling so happy now...but before i say y...let me update abt my CNY...LOL.

after e 3 hrs of ppl bai nianing at my house chu yi..chu er i did nothing at all except to eat, sleep and play pc games and not to forget watch e 7pm chn U show which has e cutest, most shuai guy on earth in it.

chu san: went to sch!! reached at 11am but coz ahtiong was late...had to sit outside e clubrm and nu er was e latest to arrive..LOL. then finally we chose our councillors etc. felt like a buffet spread...it's nice seeing so many ppl with potential. =D. we abit think too far though..tot of who got MC potential le...LOL!! afterwhich..nu er who was half an hr late for our meeting suffered a rollover effect and was 1 hr late for lunch with her frens..LOL!!! given tt i was really really very bored..i started smsing ppl to go out with me. thankfully, shan was free!! so i met shan and had a 3 hrs chat with her over coke at burger king!! it was nice catching up...and she's so busy bai nianing at bk's family...and he came to her family to bai nian too..so sweet lahz. and they got twice their usual takings and had fun at e same time..LOL. then finally we said our byes coz it's 7!!! no choice. must watch tv. LOL!! i have a date with my cutest, shuai-est guy. after which...cockroach (sh's new nickname thanks to er zi's creativity) smsed and asked me to go online play game with him!! but luckily i din have to lie...coz i said tt no choice..i'm meeting ritch to get clubrm key. and luckily..i didn't need to pretend tt it took a long time to get one key..coz it really did take an hr to get e key..LOL. coz ritch got so many relatives so alot of CNY stories...which made me so xian mu lahz!!! then finally...i made my way home with one extra key and 2 plastic bag samples..LOL.

chu si: today!! i happily went to meet my dearest gals at clementi...after which we bought popcorn...but coz e photos needed 2 hrs to dev...we went to e kopitiam to get drinks..realized tt recently i love kopitiams..just tt shan din want to go yest..LOL!! so finally we got to e kopitiam and i had teh bing!! so exciting..LOL. teh bing rox. thanks to mayi for suggesting tt i drink it!! yea! then at 1045...junli was early and he arrived and he was shocked to find that there were only 3 of us!! LOL!!!!! coz he damn funny and arrowed himself mahz..i nvr said tt he had to come..but on chu san i smsed to ask him to be a councillor and he replied to change e topic by saying 'so wat time is e meeting tmr' so i just told him e time lorz. so he turned up..LOL!!! then he felt cheated..LOL. but he still refused to be a councillor. then after nuaing for really long at e kopitiam..we bought mounting boards and collected e photos and went to mac to decide which photos to use and where to paste them. sadly with 3 gals and 1 guy thinking...e 3 of us are so not artistic and finally junli came up with e idea of how to paste e photos. die. LOL!! but anyway...now is e time to say y i'm so happy!!!

coz!! while crapping....junli came up with a wonderful idea (wanting to sabo me) but i love e idea so i'm really happy to be sabo-ed!!!

i'm going to be e mascot yet again. i'm e box of popcorn!!!!!!!!!!!!

life rox. i'm popcorn. now i just need styrofoam to fulfill my dream of being popcorn. (i noe i have e weirdest ambitions)

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i suddenly feel as if i'm on a ladder...i was happily climbing..unaware of what would happen. suddenly e top rungs vanished..and my bottom rungs decided to give in...and i am stuck floating right in e middle...it is a matter of time before i crash downwards. i always tot that it can't be that difficult being a president...to me, it was alot of coordinating, alot of admin, alot of supervision, alot of crisis-management. but i realized tt it's more than tt. it has to do with being caught in e middle. i cannot move a project ahead coz i'm not e PD. i cannot tell e dept wat to do. i'm just stuck, helpless in the middle. i noe there are others out there who want to continue...i noe it must hurt e PD to contemplate letting go..i noe it is with reluctance tt e dept wants to let go.

i want to hold on. yet, everytime i want to hold on..ppl ard me want to let go. it is times like this when i ask if i am a good leader. i choose to respect ppls' decisions coz i want them to do stuff bcoz they enjoy them and not coz i tell them to. yet, perhaps for once...i shld choose to not respect their decisions and influence them to take mine.

i see myself in a quagmire of trouble. in academia, in gc, in my love life.

but really...i won't give up wat i believe in...and i'm going to need to devote every ounce of my energy in my pursuit. i foresee a tough wk ahead when sch reopens.

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as usual..CNY is e boring time of e yr...since my celebration lasted for a total of 3 hrs. but i must say tt it's refreshing as usual seeing how loud my family can get for tt 3 hrs and how much spicy food they consume. this yr strangely...i dun find e curry and soup spicy anymore though everyone else says it's spicy and my mom can't stomach it. for this...i only have one person to thank and tt is ritch for poisoning me with tt spicy prawn mee which has stretched my tolerance for spicy food.

anyway..besides tt my really cute niece though she's really tall as well...added me to frenster..LOL!! which totally caught me by surprise and coz of that i had to log on and change my status to single and put in more pics of me + other guys to mislead and confuse her a lil. but i think it's too late. bet she showed her parents everything le.

also...it was a tad sad listening to my 2nd aunt recount her stories of how her four daughters seldom visit her...like 10 times a yr..pretty sad to grow old and feel alone..=(. esp coz she's divorced. and also listened to my relatives talk lorz..realized tt my paternal side is very yin...LOL. rather than yang. coz my grandparents had 3 kids (2 female)...my dad being e only male has one daughter (me). my 3rd aunt who has passed away had 2 daughters and 1 son. my 2nd aunt had 4 daughters. my cousins from my 2nd aunt has a total of 3 daughters and 1 son so far...LOL. e gender ratio got problem.

and i had fun watching nice sappy romance movies. CNY is a great time coz sammi cheng and miriam yeung are e hottest favs on tv and i love them. LOL. and there was nicholas tse movie and lin jun jie concert...super shuai...esp nic when he was younger. and i found a new shuai ge!! on e 7pm show...dunno his real name coz i think he's pretty new to e showbiz circle but he's super cute. e quiet kind who has a warm smile...*swoonz* and for e first time...i was totally stunned by physical appearance. coz he took off his shirt in e show and woah. i nvr knew tt a guy can look like tt!! ohmygoodness!! so hao se..but he really has an amazing body...it's e arms...*faints* amazing lahz..dunno how to explain. so hao se..LOL!!!! anyway ella is super cute inside too..=).

i realized tt love shld not require words at all....all tt matters is e feeling. realization from watching too many sappy romance movies. 

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had alot alot of fun last nite ktv-ing...realized tt everytime me and frens kbox..it's kinda like a concert thing...so we all pay attn while each other sing...my gawppl are diff..LOL. we sing and jump on e sofa and attempt to dance cyndi's  moves in e MV. poor feng though...everytime he sings a sweet line...we end it by saying 'florence~~~~' LOL. until he almost died singing. anyway it's just our imaginery scandal. it was originally for luke but he got off e hook coz feng and flor forms F&F. feng and flor...i do agree tt it sounds wonderful.

anyway was really happy to see denis and yc again before they fly off for SEP. they're sweet as usual...and they sang some nice ballads tgt...e funniest as 25 minutes...coz we changed e line 'boy, u're 25mins too late' to 'bao, u're 25mins too late' just to accomodate luke and his bao cravings (imaginary as well).

then besides tt..er zi decided to be taller than usual by jumping on e sofa...and i kept wondering if he's going to hit e ceiling. but i guess tt kbox is well-prepared for such tall mad ppl by having high ceilings. and i really love my er zi as a fellow wacky fren manz...LOL. we came up with tons of pau/bao theories and stupid abbrevs like 'HU' (hurry up) 'WYSS' (why you so slow) 'FAB' (faster a bit) and definitely e best...KD (kuai dian). LOL!! and we had fun guessing wat each other meant while e rest gave up coz they were so meaningless. then i came up with my new ZF in response to his JF. coz er zi wants to JF (jian fei) and i told him tt feng wants to ZF (zeng fei) and tt i want to ZFAB (zeng fei a bit). oh yah...to e ritch reading this...no...u dunnit to JF..someone told me tt u're planning to JF but u are not F lahz. i was just joking when i told u/ur mother tt u are. not F at all. dun JF le..not gd. u love food. u shld MF (maintain fei). and also thanks er zi for listening to my grouses abt ur fren and coming up with a nickname for him though of coz it's a mean one.

then really glad to have gone for e outing and become closer to so many of these wonderful ppl esp coz i get to say my byes to denis. she's like one of e sweetest gals i noe...and she just left an impression with her enthusiasm, her desire to do gd and her quiet faith. =).

though of coz i realized after e outing tt there are some ppl tt i cannot click with for i dunno wat reason. okie lahz..for one i dunno e reason. for e other...it's coz of e influence exerted by someone *cough cough* (u shld noe who u are). dunno abt e 1st one..hope tt i become better frens with her thru ethe. =).

another thing..da left me a frenster testi which is so typical of him. something tt makes no sense watsoever. LOL. but e fact tt he initiated contact seems to make it easier for me to approach him and ask abt sponsorship shld it be desperately required. he may just kill me for tt. LOL. but anyway i'm going over to my cousin's place tonite which is like few floors below him...

it's CNY now...and e mid-sem break. can't believe tt half a sem passed.

i love building sandcastles in e air and i noe tt e next step is to put e foundation beneath them. it is just difficult for some things. perhaps even impossible. 

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happy day. coz i learnt a new card game. and it's a card game tt i actually like. LOL. which is rare given tt i dun like bridge tt much. hence, i'm glad tt comserviceclub has finally moved on. LOL anyway it's a really cool and simple game. whoever wants to learn..i can teach. =).

life's getting busy and increasingly complex. i still rem wat den yeo said long ago during assembly...life can only get more complicated. i just want to stick with my family and play e card game everyday. =X.

k ahz..i shall go back to my readings which beckon. alot alot alot to do. coz got research stuff!! 

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Why V'day shld be annihilated this yr:

1. there is no bugbug

2. e one tt i am most willing/want to go out with asked a grp of us if we're interested in joining the grp of them once and nvr asked me again. idiot.

3. someone whom i'm not that close to has become a habit since we chat everyday and he has implied tt he wld like to ask me out.

him: what u doing on Vday?
me: dunno..LOL..but confirm conducting more councilor interviews...maybe if got cute guy i'll interview him as a potential date
him: i think i didn't score enough points for the last interview. may i be interviewed again on wednesday? ;-)

which totally stunned me for a moment..a 3am moment so i simply replied tt i think he has accumulated enuf pts to be a KC already...which is e standard highest position from e typical interview. LOL. then he hmph me. then he said nitez and tt he'll see me tmr (which is today)..but he won't! LOL. coz i'm not going for e event. y my reaction towards 3? just read 2.

4. shld prob be meeting grace and matt...but dun feel like going..just feel like sleeping at home due to 1, 2, 3. LOL. and Vday is so crowded and food is so expensive esp since grace and matt goes for more atas food which will become even more expensive. which made me think of wat sockling said last bfrening session..tt Vday sure got couples eat at hawker/coffeeshops..and i suddenly have e urge to sit there and laugh at them...LOL. 

5. i realized tt e whole vday deco at arts is so exaggerated and done up with e balloon archway and e white figure (cute one...not ghostly one) holding a fishing rod with hearts dangling over it and red hearts hanging from e ceiling...abit on e overdone side. LOL. then e banner that says sth like there's nothing to be ashamed abt loving or sth...LOL. i noticed it but not tt acutely until yest when i was walking thru arts with ritch then he commented tt arts is super kua zhang whilst law ppl are heartless over there when they dun even realize tt it's vday..LOL. but e balloon archway really quite nice..LOL.

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