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i feel as if i have just came back from an alternative existence. i wish i could stay there forever. thanks freshies for making e time so enjoyable. guess tt in C-camp, there are ppl whom i cannot click with...but there are ppl who are crazy..and i thoroughly enjoyed their company (though they claim i'm e crazy one)...but wat matters was tt my OG went crazy!! we were e slackiest OG with e lamest, shortest cheers tt require little to no shouting (LOL! demo to everyone one day)...thus no one lost their voice at all..we play all our games super fast (dunno y) and we have tons of time to slack..like during MJ aka trustwalk...we had time to go toilet, sabo station i/c, sabo KC..damn fun!! and e weirdest thing was...we got best OG!! one thing is certain..our voices were in such gd condition..we obviously cheered for it!! a loud cheer of coz...but racist! LOL.
yah..we're e weirdest grp...our choice of conversation topic revolves ard e following:
1. shit (yah! our KC is named da bian xian zi..like wth...btw..it means shit immortal)
2. digging of nose
3. sabo-ing e KC
4. SL1101E how to slack during camps
5. scandals and matchmaking
6. how we can pose for photos (in a gay and erotic way)
yepz. so it was fun...interacting with these ppl...funny how we all come together. dentistry, medicine, sci, engine, arts, biz, NTU! all coming together in a mess. think one of e key moments was when we cldn't choose a best freshie..coz they're all so crazy!!!!!! we wanted to submit e name 'liu quan bu'. coz we're grp 6 so liu which is supposed to sound like six in chi. (yah...my C-camp is like chinese camp..LOL.) but they say cannot..so we submitted e name 'chio-bu'...then e hosts were like 'after five grps where e best freshies are male...we finally have a female best freshie!!' and chiobu and up and took e prize (but chiobu is a guy! LOL) and e hosts almost died laughing.
my grp was so crazy, we danced e lindy hop, we stripped a freshie (who was posing as a terrorist during e 'legendary couple' segment and wearing a cardboard box)...we danced in e middle of e circle during mass singing with everyone else staring at us from e sides...we karate chop coconuts...we climbed thru a hole to get back into chalet! yah..we're indeed mad.
i love my grp! i love C-camp!!
but i learnt things which i wish i nvr knew.......no regrets. it's like wheelbarrow i guess (did i mention tt i was e barrow???? LOL. my arms grew stronger man) the two ppl must be co-ordinated. if one is too strong and e other is too weak...it will seem like one is pulling e other while e other is getting dragged along. in this r/s....i noe that for now...i am e wheel being dragged along by my barrow...i noe tt bug must be tired from pulling..some ppl are just not suitable to be in relationships..i noe tt i am one of those. thanks bug for putting up with me..when i get busy...i forget abt everyone...sorry....
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camp's over. it wasn't too bad..cld have done better..but given e limited manpower...not bad!! glad tt everyone enjoyed themselves and tt so many ppl have said tt they're proud of me..=). esp when S.W was so supportive thru-out camp and told me everyday tt i've done well..and how everyone has so much faith in me, believing tt i am gd enuf to run for P. an affirmation for e work i've put in i guess...and even more touching was when bug told me today tt he's proud of me and wat i have done for FOC..and tt he felt it was amazing tt i managed to do e amt of work which i did.
i love all my frens..i love bug..thanks for everything..e support both physically and emotionally. for being there for me thru all this..if i cld choose to live my life diffly...i wld have chosen exactly e same life which i've lived which i am living. =) it's a beautiful life.
coz i love u..and u love me...something so simple. =) anyway today was weird..ran into like 8 ppl me and bug knew..okie..if we include louis..it'll be 9...e last one was e killer. BC. LOL. soon e whole AC will noe tt me and bug are together and BC's face totally lit up when he saw us..most dramatic. it has a 'hey!!!!!!!!!! isn't tt!!!!!!!' look and a 'yea manz...scandal time' look..LOL
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when i feel unsure, uncertain abt anything..i think of bug and try to be strong. and i just feel like seeing him bahz.coz when i see him, at least something feels certain in this world of mine. something solid, there, unwavering. telling me tt it's position will not shift. bug has always professed to be clingy...perhaps now..i just want to cling on to bug too...believing tt somehow..i will ride out of this storm...
soon...very soon..i can retire...
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random tot of e day...
everyone is born with a pair of eyes...two ppl may see e same object...one sees beauty yet one may only see ugliness. it is sad to be born with a pair of eyes yet lack e gift of sight, wat's e use of eyes...if all one can see is ugliness in e world? some see beauty in everything, some see ugliness everywhere. there are ppl with e gift of eyes which can see but who merely see e dirt and grime and darkness of e world...yet there are ppl who may be blind, yet think tt e world is beautiful. the latter is of coz more blessed...
camp's coming. hope no one complains abt trial tmr. it'll be boring. but it's necessary.
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yepz..u guessed it..going to blog abt e wedding..e whole thing was quite screwed up really..and from e looks of everyone...think i looked happier than everyone else in church combined incl e bride and groom. LOL.
me, suz and char decided to go together...it was pouring cats and dogs...like totally bad...e mrt station was flooded with crez ppl...all my batch??? he din invite e other batches..just weird. then me, charl and suz got a ride there thanks to charl's bf...during e initial phase of e journey...von called and said she's coming! so we turned back for her..but given that there is no u-turn! we got a lil lost. finally we picked her up and continued on our way. suz is no longer so auntie le! in e looks dept at least. she looks kinda matronly instead..LOL! big diff lahz..von still e same, charl also. von's voice still so high pitched...LOL..still sound like minnie mouse. and she's still attached...3yrs+ le. charl is as usual too...new guy all e time. her 8th bf in 4 yrs! and her bfs all like not bad lehz. this one has a car, coming into NUS, got dbl hons in law and econs! woah. and suz was shocking since she's attached for 1 yr plus! but nvr tell us!!! then lutf happened to see her with a guy and carried tales to me...and i asked suz. LOL. anyway happy for her...e guy's from her volunteering prog..and i noe just how passionate she is abt tt prog..been on it since sec 3!! happy for her. and i do think tt e guy is just right for her though charl asked y she's dating an ah-pek coz e guy's 26. well..suz is like e most mature person u can find lahz..she prep angpows for all of us knowing we wldn't think of it!
okie...then we got there in e rain. there was no receptionist...corn told us to go at 1130. we reached at 1136. and e bride's mom told us we're late coz e ceremony starts at 1130!!!!!!!!!!! wth. ceremony start at 1130, u tell ur guests to come at 1130?? of coz ask them come at 11 lahz! so we went and sat down. before our butts even contacted e seats for 1 min! e bride entered!! LOL.. anyway e dynamics of e ceremony was weird. corn's side had like exclud. e photographer, his wedding helpers etc, 2 rows of adults. e rest of us were students and we only filled up like 5 or 6 rows. e bride's side had 2 solid blocks of ppl. mostly adults. and when we were supposed to sing e hymms and stuff..e bride's side sang happily while we just shuffled ard on our feet.
then e priest tried to liven up e atm and mentioned tt e bride is a catholic while corn is buddhist?? then there was silence for a while. and e priest tried to be funny and asked them to go up front w/o e booklets tt contain e vows saying tt they shld rem it. well..obviously not well...corn was like 'er................(for 3 secs), I....**** ****...erm...' after an agonizing min, he finished his few lines. and it just felt wrong when e priest went like 'Would the two of you receive God's gift of love through the granting of children wholeheartedly and bring them up to be good christians?' kinda thing and corn said 'I will' which was his set line accordig to e wedding proceedings. was just wondering wat if he said 'i won't...i wld let them choose wat religion they choose to follow'...wld they still be pronounced husband and wife?
and corn looked so awkward when he tailed his wife to e portrait of Mary and he dropped e tail of her dress and looked ard as if he didn't understand y he's standing there...and she had to ask him to pick up e tail of her dress again. and when they were supposed to sign e marriage register, there was no pen on e table and corn had to pat his entire shirt and coat and finally produced a pen.
when they finally walked out..they looked like they were in a great hurry to exit..LOL. there was no bouquet of flowers for e bride, no bridemaid. e best man carried his coat ard e whole time and forgot to wear it when he went up to present e rings.
in e end, i tried to give corn an angpow but he said dunnit..then i tried to give his wife who looks like a nice person who said dunnit too..so i saved e money and went kfc with suz...yest i felt tt it was a great day. yest i was so happy. guess e excitement has died by today...since i can no longer master e enthusiasm tt i had yest...dunno. as long as he's happy i guess.
i miss you like the waves along the coast,
Of the seas parted by land.
Rolling, tumbling.
Curved by the sand...
poem by dear bug bug..LOL.and copying and pasting tt screwed up my blog settings..so i'm not sure how these words will look like later. i noe tt i love to argue...even abt army stuff. LOL. and i love to win..and i guess tt sometimes it's frustrating not winning...but e reasons behind my wanting to win bug in debates abt army escapes me..LOL.
and hmmmm..corn's crazy. LOL.
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i realised tt i wanted to blog something yest..but e post didn't get posted. oh well...fate works in weird ways. but u noe wat. wat i blogged abt...wat i wrote...worked! =)
anyway i had a most wonderful day today. after tuition i met up with pri sch frens! shan, bao, ck, bk, bh, lk to go to settler's...it was so fun seeing them again. bao nvr change! still like a big sister...LOL. still has les tendencies?? LOL. anyway it was funny us marching along e rd with our arms looped. =) miss our mac breakfast days. ck also still e same..but last i saw him was JC anyway! bk bh still e same from my j1 bday party...and i had fun asking bh abt goldfish. can't believe they're together..weirdest couple ever. okie..i'm prejudiced against goldfish..then me and lk will exchange knowing looks when i ask abt goldfish..LOL..yepz and lk nvr change also...still kanna bully by me..from pri sch till now. from me throwing his connect 4 out of e window till our playing card games when i am e thief and kept calling out a random number to steal e character card's money and he's forever e one holding on to tt particular char card..LOL.
and of coz we had fun reminiscing...abt our ex form teacher...abt me bullying lk and how nice his parents were to me (they just love to remind me), abt bao and bk bh and how they hang ard (or in their words 'hun') then i had fun thinking how my pri sch frens are so special and unique..since they are so chi..and who else says 'hun' like we're from some gang..bao undergrad somemore..completely doesn't talk like one..i realised tt i miss lk's mom more than i miss him! LOL..i think abt my fren's mom more..how weird. think his mom was just quirky...always wanting me over at their house...wanting to buy me lunch, dinner...saying tt i am a sweet gal while i destroyed his son's toys and threw his connect 4 bits out of e window..can still rem her..
lk mom: see..ppl so gd gal!!
(me flashing a smile while i continued to throw connect 4 pieces out of e window)
lk mom: look at urself lahz!
(me laughing)
lk mom: kw, are u hungry?? i order pizza for u..wat topping u want??
me: dunnit lahz auntie..i'm not hungry
lk mom: nono..i'm sure u are...chicken supreme can? [yes..i rem exactly wat pizza she offered
me: can...
lk mom: okie
me: actually...hawaiian can??
lk mom: can!!
(lk mom laughs and goes away while i tell lk how nice his mother is! unlike him [just joking..he very nice also...he was smiling while i threw his connect 4 out of e window..crazy gamily])
anyway..when e gd came back, there was hawaiian and chix supreme and garlic bread and coke and a whole range of stuff. after which..we pigged in. =D anyway think she was under e impression tt me and lk were together? coz they kept asking if i'm his gf...hello! i was like in pri 5 or 6 only lahz..wth. but it was fun...felt like me and sm's double tag team on lk is supported by his family..LOL. makes me smile thinking how much we bullied him. perhaps today at e gathering...although me and shan have been in constant contact for all these yrs..i felt an instant closeness to lk bahz..picking up where we left off..our madness..still rem how mad me him and sm were..throwing paper at each other during lessons...=) behind e enemy facade...guess 3 of us just have tt frenship bond tt'll stay.
makes me miss sm...not e current sm...but tt lil gal tt i knew in pri 5 and 6...tt i slept next to during p5 camp, we showered together, slept together, ate together during camp. we smeared chi ink on lk, threw balls of paper on him, took his money and bought food for him with it claiming it's gd for him. thinking back...it was really overboard sometimes. but those were e times. me, sm, lk...e happy trio! (wonder y he was happy though..LOL) (okie..i do noe y..muahahaha)
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if u ever think ur life is down in e dumps...just read H's blog. i've always felt tt i bring ppl luck..maybe i do. i really dunno wat's wrong with him...but i feel like helping. yet, it's not really in my place to care...since it'll be weird if i tell him tt i'm attached then start being concerned abt him...and evil to not tell him tt i'm attached and start being concerned for him tt is assuming tt he minds lahz..which of coz he may not. i noe he's been having probs with AC and i guess tt blows starting coming in with betrayals, getting fired etc. he way he was fired was damn cock too...i noe coz i went thru abt e same thing when my date of termination came along and everyone tot someone else has told me...zzz. some ppl just dun have e decency to dare to bring up e subj with u. when u realise one day tt ur name is off a roster...it just comes as a nasty shock. like a deer in headlights with ppl staring at u waiting for ur reaction and u feel like u must put up an oscar-winning 'well..i nvr cared for this job anyway' skit.
and okie..i've smsed H a fwd sms and added in a 'good luck' at e end..since i do believe rather naively tt if i pass on my luck to him...things will work out in e end. his life has been going downhill ever since last wk i think...worse every single day. i wldn't even watch a stranger go thru tt. with abit of luck...and H-brand fighting spirit...things will get back on track...i'll lend him my luck...=) e K-brand luck is e best luck in e mkt. muahahhaaha.
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3 things happened today..in chronological order
1. gave tuition to les.i miss tt gal. LOL. during tuition we went thru so much econs. cool! then we pigged out on seaweed...super nice. i think bug will like..it's quite salty..and it's like one whole packet of seaweed...some authentic jap-ish thing. yum yum...but les says it's only sold at toa payoh NTUC. which is just weird. LOL. i miss e gal...e food and e pay. =)
2. was on e bus home when this rather crazy person got on..he kept saying 'fuck u' and he kept mumbling like 'i know stuff abt u' 'i noe ur secret' and he started cursing SBS buses which din really matter since we were on TIBS anyway. then he cursed Goh C*** T***. just weird. LOL. i mean wat has he against buses and Goh? LOL. anyway i was so bored i was trying to imagine him less insane, more dignified, not smelly (as he is), wearing clean shirts, looking less ill-nourished and making his political speech against SBS and e govt...LOL. and well..i can imagine it...with better and more decent lang and a clearer less mumbled voice of coz. and i tried to imagine him a political exile escaping from Sentosa...rather successful. he fits e image quite well. as u can tell..i am imaginative.
3. corn's getting married. happy for him. embarking on e next phase of his life. abt time too. suddenly i miss him a lil. it's as if we've always had a special r/s...although he and lene are frens thru sem...and he tells her lil things...i'm always e first to noe e big things, e one to get e souvenirs, e one he scolds and of coz e one he's nicest to. will miss him..=). but life is as such..we move on and we're happy now...and it's e best outcome...by all game theories it is e best outcome. maximin.
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3 things happened today..in chronological order
1. gave tuition to les.i miss tt gal. LOL. during tuition we went thru so much econs. cool! then we pigged out on seaweed...super nice. i think bug will like..it's quite salty..and it's like one whole packet of seaweed...some authentic jap-ish thing. yum yum...but les says it's only sold at toa payoh NTUC. which is just weird. LOL. i miss e gal...e food and e pay. =)
2. was on e bus home when this rather crazy person got on..he kept saying 'fuck u' and he kept mumbling like 'i know stuff abt u' 'i noe ur secret' and he started cursing SBS buses which din really matter since we were on TIBS anyway. then he cursed Goh C*** T***. just weird. LOL. i mean wat has he against buses and Goh? LOL. anyway i was so bored i was trying to imagine him less insane, more dignified, not smelly (as he is), wearing clean shirts, looking less ill-nourished and making his political speech against SBS and e govt...LOL. and well..i can imagine it...with better and more decent lang and a clearer less mumbled voice of coz. and i tried to imagine him a political exile escaping from Sentosa...rather successful. he fits e image quite well. as u can tell..i am imaginative.
3. corn's getting married. happy for him. embarking on e next phase of his life. abt time too. suddenly i miss him a lil. it's as if we've always had a special r/s...although he and lene are frens thru sem...and he tells her lil things...i'm always e first to noe e big things, e one to get e souvenirs, e one he scolds and of coz e one he's nicest to. will miss him..=). but life is as such..we move on and we're happy now...and it's e best outcome...by all game theories it is e best outcome. maximin.