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was watching tv just now...such a nice show..has alyssa chia..super pretty. and this episode was like super romantic.
xuan (guy) crawls towards the medical hall where ying (gal) lives...xuan is dying. he faints just before he reaches the steps.
ying was coming home...
ying: xuan! what happened to u?? *shakes guy and keeps crying
xuan: *wakes briefly* ying...u noe something, u are e reason i made it back. *faints@
okie..previously xuan was captured by this gal who likes him and wants to keep him with her...he jumped off some mountain cliff thing coz he wanted to take e gamble of seeing ying again.
then next day...xuan asked ying if he shld cancel his engagement to ying's best fren and ying said no and scolded xuan (though she loved him). ying said tt xuan doesn't now wat is love. and xuan said tt he does. upon probing, xuan said tt love is when with e last breath he has, he keeps moving in e direction towards her...hoping to see her just one last time before he dies.
insightful huh!
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when they said tt love is blind..
they weren't kidding
coz i dunno y i love u e way i do.
when they said tt love is self-sacrificing
they weren't kidding
coz i dunno y i would give up so much just to be next to u.
when they said tt love is irrational
they weren't kidding
coz i dunno y i do the things i do everytime u come near.
when they said tt love is giving
they weren't kidding
coz i dunno y i would give u my everything.
when they said tt i would love you e way i do
i said, they gotta be kidding.
unfortunately..they're not. coz....
they weren't kidding.
that's my new poem...titled 'They weren't kidding'. when i heard his voice over e phone on e 23rd...i tried to place it..it sounded familiar somehow...e closest match is corn's. but it's still a lil diff..i dun think e feeling of warmth tt emancited from it was from e similarity to corn's...but i felt like i just noe it. i just noe tt voice. from e recesses of my mind. perhaps...it simply is meant to be. perhaps not. i just signed up for proj6 mkting...i mean like how crazy can i be given tt it's so close to my GS camp. i rather die juggling both then see him stressed over e cell lacking ppl. silly and i noe it. dunnit to tell me. thanks.
thanks for being ard...whether or not u like me...thanks for seeming like u're interested. thanks for not saying hi to me in real life coz tt makes me feel as if u cld poss like me and dunno how to go abt things..like how some soon-to-be couples act. i'm thinking back and realised tt e only other time this happened was with corn, since every other guy i din like them so i'll just say hi...said hi to da too anyway. well...
it too is a fact tt i haven't fallen so hard for a long time. almost as hard as i did for corn. that took me a yr to admit. i'm glad tt this time round.....i noe how i feel. grow up le! =)
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yest...we talked over e phone...saying e same pts over and over with varying amt of chi. it went something like this
me: wat's e crowd usually like at P on thurs?
H: mostly mats bahz
me: okie
H: yah...not much people
me: LOL...okie, we don't need to have alot of e public
H:haha..yah...we dun have alot of other ppl at P on thurs
me: LOL...yah...okie
H: yah lorz..thurs hen shao ren
me: hen hao, yin wei we also bu yao hen duo ren
H: yah...so hen shao ren
me: yah yah...na mo duo ren for wat
H: yah...dunnit na mo duo ren lahz...
me: anyway i think we dun really want to hang out with e ren tt usu go there also
H: yah lorz..mei you shen mo ren
me: yah..gdgd.
something like tt..amazing rite? anyway it was a relatively long conversation
today! we saw each other..but din noe how to say hi again! weird. so we just looked at each other then look away. so on my way home i smsed him asking him to take a look at e banner tt i helped to paint...and tt we'll say hi e next time. then he replied saying 'Haha! Ok :) i had a long day..didn't sleep much last night..n workin now..at some prime minister event at dxo..damn tired man..phew' LOL!!!!!!!! so funny. working can still sms me. gd sign. and talk so much random stuff..gd sign too.=). too bad he din reply to my reply. must be busy at e event..=p.
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sometimes i am weak as well..i need someone to tell me things are okie..to tell me to jiayou. thanks bug for being here for me. thanks rob, luke as well.e one i want...is sadly missing. how do i tell him tt i need him to tell me jiayou? how do i do it...i dunno.
feeling so emotional today..sigh. all i want is for him to tell me to jiayou. if everything is worth it as long as he glances at me...i think i must too stuck too deep.
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currently...i am surviving on 2 things:
1. love
2. coke
okie...both of them are powerful...but are they powerful enough to see me through? through all these shit. through a silly PD, cell members who are unhelpful and looming tests as well as projects that are cornering me? i wonder why i bother...e reasons are simple. coz e proj is under ur wing ultimately. i want it to do well...i want it to stay on track even if the world is knocking it off. whether i can do it...or i simply will die trying. i'll give it my 100%. no matter how miserable, how tiring, how much i must sacrifice for this...i am stopping the train from being derailed. at the end of the day...would u even know or care how much i did to bring this train to its destination...
at the end of the day..when the train reaches the station...all i want is a smile from u...saying well done. i hope i dun cry when u say it. it would be awfully silly...but then again i am so awfully silly. so so awfully silly.
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he replied...filling me with enthusiasm this morn....e reason y i am blogging now and not getting ready for sch is very simple...if u think abt who i will be meeting: rubz, shaz, val...it is logical to conclude tt they will be late..LOL. he replied! so happy! i was dancing over breakfast! (LOL..tt's crazy). he said 'Hey kit' somemore! means he saved my number...=) coz i din intro myself in e sms. i just asked 'are u working on thurs?' it cld have been anyone...e fact tt he replied with my name means tt he saved my number. okie. then he went on to say 'sorry for e late reply :)' he was apologetic for taking long to reply me (okie..he used to say tt as well...fine. no big deal abt this line..but erm..he smiled?. okie...e next line was disappointing coz he's not working on thurs won't see him during recce. e last line was encouraging...it said 'why leh?' means he wants to noe y!!!!! LOL! shld have replied and say tt it's coz i guessed he's not working and want to ask him out..okie! super lame. yah lahz..coz i want to go recce and hope to liaise with him if he's there..boring reply rite? LOL.
plsplspls....praying now tt he will reply 'oh...do u want me to change my shift?' or 'hey..okie, i can change my shift' or something!!!! ARGH!! shld have told him earlier...i dun think he will. very professional person k. okie, no choice, sad. recce w/o seeing him.
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he nvr reply my sms...sad. =( i wonder if he's busy...or if he just cannot be bothered.
i did wat i can for him...i did it so well tt i could have bagged a sponsorship worth $2k. but well...dunno whether we still want e venue. a sponsorship worth 2k...got it so easily coz of my 3 pg letter and super gd email add and gd PR skills. wat was e driving force behind it? him. just him. nothing else but him. do i feel for e sport? no. e cca? no. e venue? no. just him.
sometimes...love just makes u feel like shit. me, rubz, shaz will agree on tt score now..since we all had our feel-like-shit times recently. 2k.2k.2k. and damn. i miss him. miss him like crazy.
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just saw e circular by e NUS pres...(no...not H...e pres of e uni)...so typically s'porean...students pt fingers at NUSSU...they pt their fingers at sch admin...sch admin pts to M0E...if M0E is to respond...i bet they will point it to globalisation of something.
anyway....e issue has on e surface come to a form of closure albeit one some undercurrents...hope tt H is less stressed one..one less thing to deal with...or rather one less thing to deal with on e admin lvl..he'll prob still argue with his dad abt it some day...and it'll prob deter him from hons yr. unless of coz he comes to a realisation in yr 3 tt he is SOOO free w/o e club that he can work more and pay for hons yr by himself.
anyway...okie...now let's talk abt my gals!
my day yest:
started e day emailing The Cage but they have yet to reply...zzz. then i got a call from someone named ronnie who asked if i ordered birds online..given tt birds live in cages and that it was 11am in e morn or something...so i was super blur and said yes!! LOL. then he was like asking which of e birds i want...i was like huh??????????
so we got off e phone...e guy smsed me!! and asked me for my name etc etc...so i asked him to join futsal...given that well...i was still thinking abt The Cage which is related to futsal..and he said okie and tt he will try to form e teams...super funny...somemore he's 32. weird lahz.
okie...so after tt funny but a lil traumatising experience...i went to meet e gal (rubz, shaz, grace). wah liew..take bus till i fell asleep...super long journey...so i have this mos shake...tt was damn hard to suck!! but okie lahz..just abit too cold for my liking. frozen.
then we all went to walk ard and ended up at e arcade...LOL..played like quite abit of games...realised tt my bball skills not too gd..my bowling sux..LOL...realised tt i am okie with throwing balls into lilo's mouth and slamming things..and tt this guy can do DDR really well. okie..highlights of arcade were doubtlessly cheering e kids on with their parents smiling at us (i have a soci argument abt this..blog it next time...) and of coz e carousel...me, grace and sharon went on it but rubin was too malu to sit on it..LOL. then we all took photos on it too!! really ahz..tong xin wei mian...(still a child at heart to my potato-eating frens)
anyway...yepz...arcade was so fun it cheered shaz up for a while.
then we went buy tidbits at uncle tidbits..then said hi to my mom at seiyu...then we went popular to shop...i got 2 big erasers..2 wooden pencils tt me, shaz and grace bought together tt's a set...and i got 3 PPG pencils for myself and this thing tt supoosed to aid my writing with my left hand...(doesn't work ahz!). yepz...then we went pastamania for dinner...then went 77th st where grace bought a pencil case w/o even checking out e price.
then grace and shaz were super high...grace cldn't even walk in a str line..sharon keep giggling..i was on e other hand super stoned..rubin looked quite traumatised..LOL. okie then sleepy and sad shaz went and met josh and wld not be sleeping for another nite...i came home at abt 11pm and my mom reached before me! LOL.
then i came online..and i saw bug...and he said tt he had another talk with H...after FH (an event)..during e debrief...bug just sat in for fun...he went and sat next to H...then after e debrief...H turned to him and asked how bug got to noe me...!!! he asked abt me!! so bug told him...=) then he mused tt he doesn't really noe me...LOL...i wonder if this is a gd start..but e fact tt he initiated e conversation means tt he must have tot abt me and is curious...=)
y The Cage ppl nvr contact me....i'll go camp outside their office to ask even..i must do it...jiayou jiayou jiayou.
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he found out tt it's me...LOL. he's generally happy and touched and grateful..and he said tt i lightened his day. he said tt he guessed it coz we dun really noe each other very well but i sms him more than someone who noes him e same amt wld..LOL. how smart.anyway...i smsed him (since i am such a freaking impulsive person tt well, i agree tt we dunno each other tt well...thus i will try to unglue my mouth when i see him....he replied: 'Haha..thanks for yr card and rose! :) it did lighten up my day realli..Goodnight' (no choice..it was 1 am...not tt he wanted me to go away).
okie....so tt's tt. he's didn't look at me tt day though. but he did come over to sit opposite me...looked super serious..think he was doing some tuition fee thing bahz.big hoo-haa. i wonder...........if he's okie...i am so crazy.
anyway my frens are all like abit depressed recently..i guess i'm supposed to be given tt he found out tt i like him and he hasn't said anything and if he likes me...i'm sure he would say something...but i am still an optimist and still crazy. as long as he nvr says no and tells me to get lost...i will be happy. perhaps i'm even crazier now..coz i noe now tt he noes i like him....i dun have to conceal my intentions like stop myself from reading his blog in case in no. of visits thing jumps too much. now....who care?! he noes anyway. i can sms him stupid things...who cares! he noes i like him le...lalala.
anyway...i must be super zai...i want to be e most zai person he noes...mustmustmust!
=p. and rubz and shaz cheer up!! i must jiayou!!! so much drive in me....i am studying AND doing my cca projs now...bring on e acad projs....i will jiayou!
PS: amazing i woke up at 8+ today...full of energy!! i want to meet grace and rubz early! like meet now!!! okie..crazy, i go study first...;)
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You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I......am crazy! can't believe tt i did wat i did for him. goodness. it cld result in such an embarrassing situation...i won't even blog abt it.
it's really funny...how u can forget e past but it will come back and hunt u down. yest during my prog meeting...i tot of including e tarzan jane gorilla game thing. then i sat shock-still...and i had to ask matt...'erm..do u rem who was e station ic for tt game?' coz matt was councillor mahz...so he would have known. then matt said 'i think it's...' then i said 'him rite?' then matt was like 'him?' me: 'him lah!' matt: 'who?' me: 'H___' matt: 'yah lehz....i think so too'. then i tot he was humouring me...so upon reaching hm...i asked matt again on msn 'really him ah?' matt says he rems so...somewhere in his memory...i trust his memory...coz i rem so too. it was somewhere in my mem too..just tt at tt time, e fact tt vin was irritating me pushed it out. now, it comes flooding back.
playing e game. hard to explain e rules without props...
okie...so anyway me and this guy were moving at e edge of e water towards each other to do scissors paper stone...he splashed water in my face. idiot. then...e station ic came over and splashed water on him and said something like 'how would u like tt?' and scolded him...then he leant over and was very concerned coz kanna my eye mah e water. then he asked like 'are u okie? can u continue with e game??' tt kinda thing. so nice...unfortunately e incident exited my mind till now. i often wondered...y was it tt e first time i saw him (despite him looking like a freaking malaysian) i felt an inexplicable feeling...and y i see such concern and encouragement in his eyes...perhaps, i found a theory to explain it. at one of my vulnerable moments...he offered me e exact concern i would have wanted. and stood up for me in e exact way tt i would have wanted a bf to.
when i asked vin if he rem tt some guy splashed water onto my face and e station ic helped me...he said he rems too...i wonder if things would have been diff...if he rushed down and scolded e guy...wld i have fallen for him? LOL.
PS: i rem tt when i first saw H at e game...i tot he's quite cute...=p. and i rem looking back to e game on shore while i played captain's ball in e sea...=). to see him. goodness!
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i am such a freaking romantic...i suddenly find e fact staring me in e face...can't believe tt i wrote a poem, got a card and not to mention my plan to burn a disc..however, i am seriously tired now. so much has happened...i dunno where to start. so many ppl swirling in my mind, dunno where to place them. ambiguous r/s. i dunno if i'll still like H tmr to be very frank...but wat's most impt is tt i like him now. living for e moment...coz e future confuses me, e past offers no answers. let me just do watever i can.
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You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.<br />
You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.<br />
In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.<br />
Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.<br />
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Your strength: Your dependability<br />
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Your weakness: You hate being alone<br />
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For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.<br />
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You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.<br />
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.<br />
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Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.<br />
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.<br />
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You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other
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Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.<br />
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You are unique, creative, and expressive.<br />
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.<br />
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You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.<br />
But you may be ready in a couple of years.<br />
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.<br />
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You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.<br />
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You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.
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i wondered if it's really poss...so i told myself, let's play a game of spider solitaire, if i win, it's poss. if i lose, i will just let nature take its course. i got to e last deck-thingie w/o even completing a set..to ppl who don't noe, this means that e situation is hopeless. i've nvr gamed from such a situation before, coz i am always rash and simply move e most obvious cards ard...but today, i curbed that and moved the cards after much calculation...after much thought...i gamed.
hence, i glimpsed the insight that the cards were trying to show me (that makes it sound more than tarots than poker cards)...anyway can it be called a divine msg?? LOL. anyway, e msg is tt i am too rash in dealing with him perhaps, time to calculate my moves? that will however, be most difficult..not something which i would believe myself capable of doing. calculating every step...i believe in e 'initial combustion' as stated in e horoscope, i dun believe in e wariness, yet i am weary now..
just when i thought that's damn sad...i read chong's blog...his case sadder manz...i agree, the greatest distance is e centimetres betwn him and qi...somemore qi sees him as such a gd fren, yet only a fren. excruciating dist...at least for me, e dist is so far that i wld nvr go near anyway. so pessimistic rite?
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Libra with Aries
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You could marry an Aries in the case of your Venus and the Aries Mars; there is an abundance of attraction. This involves your basic gentleness and Aries' aggressiveness. It is an instance of opposites attracting each other. Aries affects that part of your chart having to do with marriage, partnerships, legal commitments, public relations, the way you face the world and the way the Mudge. Obviously, the result could be emotional fireworks. This can be exciting - but even so, excitement can wear thin. You know what you want, but you may want more than Aries can provide. On the negative side of this relationship, you draw upon each other; you sap each other's energy. You come alive but you also become weary, wary and apprehensive. The moments of joy become spaced with times of worry and frustration. With each setback, there are step forward: you are almost like a general, planning each move. What starts as spontaneous combustion could conclude in a studied demeanor, which is taxing to say the least. On the positive side, a genuine attraction can overcome most obstacles. The steps backward become constructive exists on both sides, marriage, home and family could result. You learn from Aries; some of the lessons are bitter ones. Others are those you will treasure. I suppose, Libra, one can only say that you will be attracted to Aries, you might join forces with Aries, and it is certainly within the realm of possibility (and more) that you will find happiness with an Aries. But it won't always be easy! |
i agree with e 2nd para...and only e 2nd.
Libra is the sign opposite Your own-these people attract you in the manner that opposites attract. There could be an excellent physical relationship here. However, on the negative side, this could lead to legal maneuvers, which tarnish your image.
Libra represents your Seventh Solar sector, which has to do with public relations, marriage, contracts, and legal documents. Libra persons bring out compassion in you. However, you also are tempted to take advantage of the Libran. You push - Libra gives. You push some more, Libra continues to give. And if you continue pushing, Libra could be pushed out of your life.
So, Aries, in dealing with Libra, you learn the lesson of restraint. You also learn to protect your image. This is because Libra has a way of making you see yourself as others do. You are able, Aries, to lead - but you must not get so far ahead that you leave others behind. Libra helps to drive home this point. Librans contain many of your opposite qualities. So it is constructive for you to observe the Libran, to learn lessons-and to apply them.
There is definite attraction between Aries and Libra because the two are basically opposite. And for you, Aries, this is all to the good. Some of your aggressive qualities are toned down if you are around Libra for any length of time. Aries and Libra-all in all, there could be great harmony, ill Aries, you don't push quite so hard.
The Libra Venus and your Mars significator blend in a manner to provide warmth, interesting physical reactions and success at joint efforts. There are problems here, but there also are enough assets to result in success - if you care enough.
okie...i admit that tonite, i totally pushed it. i was impatient, i was rude and i scolded H.
JY was sick...and had to be sent home...so i smsed H to tell him to guan xin her abit...leader must welfare welfare mahz. he replied while i was giving tuition..he said: Sorry who is this again? I oredi knew bout her condition, talked ot her just now,n msged her just now. okie e first line did it for me. i ignored his sms. and cont giving tuition..then my phone rang. seeing that it was a house number, i answered e call and e person said 'hi....who are u? i'm C____ H___.' i wanted to say wrong number coz i was busy and din recognise e name...then i repeated e name to myself then said...'oh...hi, i'm kit' i was freaking pissed lahz...anyway we had like 2 mins and 21 secs worth of conversation, mightly long given tt i was giving tuition. i tried to end e conversation given tt i was pissed and that my tutee was looking at me...anyway...he was just asking me how's jy, how was e event, whether i had fun today.
well! if he din call me, i would have tried to forget that he even existed. call me for wat. so after tuition, being freaking pissed, i smsed him and gave him a piece of my mind (instead of a piece of my heart). i gave more details abt e day tt i left out coz i freaking wanted to get off e phone and then i told him tt i dun think tt i am that temporal in his life that he shld choose not to save my number and that i hate to intro myself in every sms. pls! i nvr knew that he din save my number since we always had decent conversations but i guess that he simply decided tt all GS clubbing related messages are from me.
thanks man. thanks, for e importance u have attached to me.
and for telling me tt u appreciate my telling u abt e event, abt jy, abt my day.
thanks.
for making me wonder why u bothered to phone. i cld have deleted ur callous sms and pretended as of tmr tt i dunno u. yet now! i can't coz we spoke on e phone, coz i scolded u somemore.
wake up.wake up.wake up. see that he is an idiot, that he is evil. hello?? wake up gal.
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my day yest:
spent it in town in e evening...then squeezing thru e chingay crowd which was zzzz....caused me to miss like 45 mins of 'i not stupid'...and ting's slipper got spoilt...damn funny, so we had to buy a pair....madness....singaporeans sure can squeeze...and i must say tt i am damn gd at weaving thru crowds....i kept leaving qi and ting behind...LOL. so pro! i just glide thru e crowd....maybe i can get a temp job as crowd control officer soon...i can glide thru my workplace...muahahahha..anyway so funny....grace got to noe tt 'i not stupid' guy...intro lahz! dun be selfish! LOL....i dun mind another bro...hmmmm...=)
and i have soooo many readings to do...and i am just languishing away...okie...i am not, i am just crazily playing games, doing cca stuff and moving to e music in my rm...lalala...okie ahz! later going to bai nian to old folks le....would i seee...HIM?? LOL. last nite so sad, jy told me tt ppl started dropping out on her last min...poor gal...okie lahz...e thought of pang sei-ing her did pass thru my mind, but how can i walk out on a fren?!! when most ppl did it le..LOL. so yah lorz...i'll be there later.
okie ahz! i shall go do readings for 25 mins then ciao to bai nian!!
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Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add (+) one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.
*My own comments in [ ]
I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days. [watching more than usual le...usually, not much]
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy
I curse sometimes. [very very rarely]
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashe s in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. [but i lack e money!]
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to [blog] be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (in some things)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. [ wish I could tho]
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. [done that before...but it's rare]
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I love vaginas.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. [not ashamed...no choice!]
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary. [i dun even clean it when it's necessary]
Weight is my enemy!
I love to sing.
Added: i can be totally melodramatic!
okie....i shall tag: Grace (since she's e only one who reads my blog who has a blog..LOL)..okie, then maybe bug and huiteng and lunny and sam since they have my url and have blogs though i dun think they are regulars here...
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okie...i have to say this...i am so packed everyday tt from say 10 or 8 to 9...(avg 12 hrs) i am up and abt running all ard e place...exhausted man...esp today...i was late for meeting and i ran from e SDE bus stop to e central lib...and climbed up 4 flights of stairs and went look for e discussion rm. totally.....exhausting....but gd way to lose wt if i need to tt is.
yepz...i had a funny meeting...it went somewhat like this:
A: wat are our objectives of e proj?
B: to uncover the invisible spacesof which the disabled are marginalized. the alternative landscapes
A: .....HUH??? ...
LOL...we did that for some time...amusing...i was simply watching e exchange.
then so funny saw A-jiejie. damn bitch tt guy..anyway A-jiejie was so cute lahz...he asked me to sit with him at e table...and he looked so sad and insecure sitting alone...then i said i had to go le..coz i need to visit the toilet before e meeting...then A-jiejie looked forlornly at me and asked me to put my bag down...reminds me of msyelf...hate being alone...so i put my bag down...went toilet..went back and convinced A-jiejie to go for e meeting and not be 21 to 28 mins late coz he said tt that is style...LOL. and i can't believe this, but i saw him checking a guy out..TOTALLY checking a guy out...he looked at e guy from top to bottom to top again...as i followed his eyes and swallowed my smile...and then he winked at e guy! like...ohmygod...imagine that. LOL.
anyway meeting was as usual circular and draggy with C...LOL...as rightly pointed out by A-jiejie e bitch. i din even realise it till he told me today tt his exp with C has always been long, draggy meetings. oh well! no choice! still rem yest's horrific exp of a 3 hrs meeting.
anyway wat else today...met up with grace and wj today and us plus rubz and shaz went back pj...saw CP...LOL..finally passed e disk to mama...saw my ch0ir peeps.saw some ex-students...glad that they're so enthu...saw some stars in some blown up balloonish thing...LOL...i rem nothing from tt stars lect...IETL indeed. zzz.
and yea manz! i am crazy today...and i have a fivesome coming up for v'day...me, shaz, grace, val and matt. cool!
This sem seems extra packed for me!!!!!!!!! for everyone i believe...i still have not felt as if sch has started...a third of e sem has sped me by...i am standing here...with a gaping mouth...wondering...huh! u mean.....projs are due in abt 40 days?????