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12.30.05 (7:45 am) [edit]
first sms from him to me:
haha hey i can help you with P cos i work there..on good terms with the manager also..blah blah blah.(lotsa info abt who goes there). then he asked how many participants i'm expecting.
so helpful. then i smsed him some other sms...but he hasn't replied yet. sigh. i did say this in e 2nd sms along with alot of nonsense abt camp...'lol..u rem who i am ahz?'
no reply. yet??
haha hey i can help you with P cos i work there..on good terms with the manager also..blah blah blah.(lotsa info abt who goes there). then he asked how many participants i'm expecting.
so helpful. then i smsed him some other sms...but he hasn't replied yet. sigh. i did say this in e 2nd sms along with alot of nonsense abt camp...'lol..u rem who i am ahz?'
no reply. yet??
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12.30.05 (6:13 am) [edit]
went out with rubz XR, shaz and grace today..LOL. but my mind didn't go out with me today i guess. it stayed with H. he hasn't rep my sms yet...has he forgotten abt it?? if he forgot to rep my sms...does tt mean tt i am not impt? i guess so. :(
but i cannot stop thinking tt maybe he's working. well, maybe. shld i ask again??
but i cannot stop thinking tt maybe he's working. well, maybe. shld i ask again??
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12.29.05 (7:22 am) [edit]
穿上洋装看着手表 时间快到心砰砰地
和你的第一次约会 临了 金色的阳光洒满人 道
换了新唇膏把头发 好 要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满 信 说话时候你的专注 神
温柔的表情笑容里 天真 我相信 找不到有比你更好 人
你心里理想情人是 分 是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分 会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌 增加我戏份
我想问 亲爱的你把感情升 朋友变成情人
可不可以 告诉我标准 不要让我一直等
听着那时间滴答的 对街的你在点头
好像一个梦 渐渐 走到我前头
let me highlight my fav stanza:
喜欢看你走路充满 信 说话时候你的专注 神
温柔的表情笑容里 天真 我相信 找不到有比你更好 人
你心里理想情人是 分 是否也会有我的份
和你的第一次约会 临了 金色的阳光洒满人 道
换了新唇膏把头发 好 要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满 信 说话时候你的专注 神
温柔的表情笑容里 天真 我相信 找不到有比你更好 人
你心里理想情人是 分 是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分 会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌 增加我戏份
我想问 亲爱的你把感情升 朋友变成情人
可不可以 告诉我标准 不要让我一直等
听着那时间滴答的 对街的你在点头
好像一个梦 渐渐 走到我前头
let me highlight my fav stanza:
喜欢看你走路充满 信 说话时候你的专注 神
温柔的表情笑容里 天真 我相信 找不到有比你更好 人
你心里理想情人是 分 是否也会有我的份
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12.28.05 (8:24 pm) [edit]
funny...yest i told chian tt i like H and a chill just came over me. it's like i jinxed it?? typeing it out makes it seem even more real now. i'm scared. some illogical fear...i really must tell chian not to do anything abt it..to pretend i din tell him.
i wonder y...guess i have to believe in love at first sight now i guess. when i first saw him...i din noe who he was. name, position..nothing. i even tot he looked m'sian with a stupid helmet. but i dunno y, but at tt moment, i just felt something warm inside me. i rem his smile, e way he looks at kids, e way he looks at us...and i just felt...hard to describe. it's as if i've known him for so long. when i din noe him at all.
e 2nd day...i was waiting to see him..he didn't come. i was disappointed...but i din brood over it. singing that day was difficult for all of us. i was too busy putting in 100% effort. but i just didn't smile as much tt nite, w/o his smile feeding mine.
then one day, being in e clubrm, i realised tt he's e P. although something told me on e first nite tt he's P, i din expect tt feeling to be so accurate, after all i din have any logic behind my gut feeling. but sitting in e clubrm, i got my next gut feeling..tt he's a gd P.
On e party day, he turned up with a smile.seeing him there next to me, directly oppo me...smiling. =). as he laffed at our misfortune of being malhandled by kids...i found myself laffing along with him.
his laughter feeds my laughter, his smiles feed my smiles, his confidence feeds my confidence.
on bbq day, i got to noe him better. his lameness, his responsibility, his care and concern and how he expresses it. i love having him stand next to me...not speaking.
i realised tt in my eyes...his flaws make him all e more endearing. damn.
i wonder y...guess i have to believe in love at first sight now i guess. when i first saw him...i din noe who he was. name, position..nothing. i even tot he looked m'sian with a stupid helmet. but i dunno y, but at tt moment, i just felt something warm inside me. i rem his smile, e way he looks at kids, e way he looks at us...and i just felt...hard to describe. it's as if i've known him for so long. when i din noe him at all.
e 2nd day...i was waiting to see him..he didn't come. i was disappointed...but i din brood over it. singing that day was difficult for all of us. i was too busy putting in 100% effort. but i just didn't smile as much tt nite, w/o his smile feeding mine.
then one day, being in e clubrm, i realised tt he's e P. although something told me on e first nite tt he's P, i din expect tt feeling to be so accurate, after all i din have any logic behind my gut feeling. but sitting in e clubrm, i got my next gut feeling..tt he's a gd P.
On e party day, he turned up with a smile.seeing him there next to me, directly oppo me...smiling. =). as he laffed at our misfortune of being malhandled by kids...i found myself laffing along with him.
his laughter feeds my laughter, his smiles feed my smiles, his confidence feeds my confidence.
on bbq day, i got to noe him better. his lameness, his responsibility, his care and concern and how he expresses it. i love having him stand next to me...not speaking.
i realised tt in my eyes...his flaws make him all e more endearing. damn.
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12.28.05 (8:02 am) [edit]
i'm crazy abt u~~~~~~
yeayeayea. wat a cute person. top 10 reasons y u're cute.
1. u ask for help to go cut up a chicken so tt u can bbq it
2. u bbq chicken meat wrapped in alum foil tt's e size of my hand or slightly bigger.
3. u are e first person to offer me food
4. u walk ard everywhere with no clique but speaking to everyone
5. u speak to cats and sound really fierce though u are being nice to them
6. u insist tt cats aren't scared of u but merely want u to follow them
7. u have e best smile
8. u proclaim tt PS majors have e brightest ever future in such a funny way tt tickled everyone
9. u use one piece of kitchen towel with every bit of food u eat to wipe ur mouth
10. u are u. =)
okie...here's wat happened in chronological order.
i met bug at bedok...we realised tt e bus to e bbqsite is only in service on wkends and public hols..hence we took a cab. first time taking a Merc cab...yea.
so we reached there. they were playing captain's ball. H who has a intials of CH as well..LOL. so many charlie holmes in my life. was there!! then after me and bug reached...e session ended and H came out and a new game started. then H asked everyone to start cooking. LOL. then bug went and change coz he wanted to play. so i just sat ard...coz J wasn't there mahz. sianz. then H came over!! and offered me food but i guess being a polite gal, i said no to e food..LOL. coz dun want to seem greedy...and he din insist anyway. then more ppl came and offer me food and they insisted i take it..so i did. LOL!! shld have taken e food from H lahz. damn.
then finally J came back (she went out to buy stuff) then she sat next to me and talk cock. then yah lorz...i just think H very nice. here's this snippets of e day.
H (to cat): 'OI! food!!'
(cat moves away)
kit: aiyoh...u so fierce..e cat's scared and run away le
H: nono..e cat is not scared, it wants to bring me somewhere
(H walks behind cat, cat scampers away)
everyone: LOL
H: it just wants me to walk faster
LOL!!!!!!!!!
and here's how one can have a optimal conversational exchange.
BAD example (invented)
A: leaving so early??
B: yah..going shopping at JB tmr.
GD example (as wat has taken place)
H: leaving so early??
kit: going m'sia tmr
H: which part??
kit: JB
H: shopping??
kit: yah..
e only flaw of e gd example was tt bug's head was blocking my view of H and vice versa.
i learnt one thing today:
some of us express ourselves with our words, our body lang, our eyes, our sense of touch. tt's y some ppl keep moving when they speak, some ppl seem to be able to say exactly how they feel, some ppl have to touch others to show tt they care, while some ppl just look others in e eyes.
H expresses with his eyes. =)
*y bug block me..zzz!!*
yeayeayea. wat a cute person. top 10 reasons y u're cute.
1. u ask for help to go cut up a chicken so tt u can bbq it
2. u bbq chicken meat wrapped in alum foil tt's e size of my hand or slightly bigger.
3. u are e first person to offer me food
4. u walk ard everywhere with no clique but speaking to everyone
5. u speak to cats and sound really fierce though u are being nice to them
6. u insist tt cats aren't scared of u but merely want u to follow them
7. u have e best smile
8. u proclaim tt PS majors have e brightest ever future in such a funny way tt tickled everyone
9. u use one piece of kitchen towel with every bit of food u eat to wipe ur mouth
10. u are u. =)
okie...here's wat happened in chronological order.
i met bug at bedok...we realised tt e bus to e bbqsite is only in service on wkends and public hols..hence we took a cab. first time taking a Merc cab...yea.
so we reached there. they were playing captain's ball. H who has a intials of CH as well..LOL. so many charlie holmes in my life. was there!! then after me and bug reached...e session ended and H came out and a new game started. then H asked everyone to start cooking. LOL. then bug went and change coz he wanted to play. so i just sat ard...coz J wasn't there mahz. sianz. then H came over!! and offered me food but i guess being a polite gal, i said no to e food..LOL. coz dun want to seem greedy...and he din insist anyway. then more ppl came and offer me food and they insisted i take it..so i did. LOL!! shld have taken e food from H lahz. damn.
then finally J came back (she went out to buy stuff) then she sat next to me and talk cock. then yah lorz...i just think H very nice. here's this snippets of e day.
H (to cat): 'OI! food!!'
(cat moves away)
kit: aiyoh...u so fierce..e cat's scared and run away le
H: nono..e cat is not scared, it wants to bring me somewhere
(H walks behind cat, cat scampers away)
everyone: LOL
H: it just wants me to walk faster
LOL!!!!!!!!!
and here's how one can have a optimal conversational exchange.
BAD example (invented)
A: leaving so early??
B: yah..going shopping at JB tmr.
GD example (as wat has taken place)
H: leaving so early??
kit: going m'sia tmr
H: which part??
kit: JB
H: shopping??
kit: yah..
e only flaw of e gd example was tt bug's head was blocking my view of H and vice versa.
i learnt one thing today:
some of us express ourselves with our words, our body lang, our eyes, our sense of touch. tt's y some ppl keep moving when they speak, some ppl seem to be able to say exactly how they feel, some ppl have to touch others to show tt they care, while some ppl just look others in e eyes.
H expresses with his eyes. =)
*y bug block me..zzz!!*
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12.27.05 (10:58 pm) [edit]
hmmmm...i read his blog and tot to myself...WOW.
okie...firstly he's like a king bee. LOL. secondly, he's a financially indep person who does waitering and also gives tuition. thirdly, he has commitment and passion. fourthly, he's not attached though he does appear and say tt he is too busy juggling stuff to get attached..and as he has said...perhaps he hasn't found a gal he really likes.
such a commited person lahz. he's exactly e kind who sets his mind on something and gets it. he likes quotes too and collects them. =). anyway..i'll be seeing him later...i have no idea y...but i'm nervous now..though i dunno for wat. LOL. meeting bug in 2.5 hrs. then we'll go.
i guess...maybe he reminds me of myself a lil. e me who was heading e choir. totally in love with wat i'm doing, spending sleepless nites thinking how to improve e cca, thinking abt every indiv voice and their probs. being in love with wat i do...e passion, i guess is lacking now. true tt i have many projects, that i am performing my role for them...but it's like an auto-pilot thing...with no love but just duty. i miss feeling wat he's feeling, having tears come to ur eyes coz something has gone well, coz someone has under ur guidance become a better leader. i miss tt. i loved tt warm feeling when u watch ur ppl put up a gd project.
maybe i like him a lil. but i love e 'me' i see in him which has left me. but! i will find it back, w/o noeing it, i suddenly realised tt he's like a beacon for me, though he doesn't noe it. he's like a representation of e 'me' i wish to recover. w/o noeing it, i realised tt i draw strength from his smile and his warm eyes and i do best when he is there looking at me. and noeing it fully well...i'm going to be really really busy next yr as i will prob feel e irresistable urge to be in his projects, effectively rendering me totally busy. maybe i need to find a limit to myself, e edge of e cliff to noe tt i am human, maybe it is only then tt i will love e projs i have with me...when they suddenly seem so difficult to manage.
i suddenly wonder wat i see in his eyes and wat he would see in mine. tonite. i do have a God-given opportunity to speak to him tonite. i found a topic tt is valid, relevant and important.
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12.26.05 (9:23 am) [edit]
Cinderella.
qn 1..why would cinderella care so much abt going to e ball?? when she has no frens there anyway. she doesn't noe she'll see e prince as well nor tt he will notice her.
btw...maybe e prince had heard of cinderella and hired e fairy godmother to go help her get to e ball coz he either
a) likes cinderella from seeing her?? hearing abt her??
b) heard that cinderella will make a damn gd maid and he is allowed to marry more than one gal..so dun mind lahz..just marry and make her e maid.
LOL..random tots of e day. coz i feel like cinderella getting an invitation from fairy godmother for e bbq. and perhaps like cinderella, i wonder if e prince will notice me.
anyway today was fun...went out with shaz, rubz, grace, wj and jy. exchanged presents and i got some hovering toy..LOL. and yupz...really fun. =) things shldn't change in frenships like this.
qn 1..why would cinderella care so much abt going to e ball?? when she has no frens there anyway. she doesn't noe she'll see e prince as well nor tt he will notice her.
btw...maybe e prince had heard of cinderella and hired e fairy godmother to go help her get to e ball coz he either
a) likes cinderella from seeing her?? hearing abt her??
b) heard that cinderella will make a damn gd maid and he is allowed to marry more than one gal..so dun mind lahz..just marry and make her e maid.
LOL..random tots of e day. coz i feel like cinderella getting an invitation from fairy godmother for e bbq. and perhaps like cinderella, i wonder if e prince will notice me.
anyway today was fun...went out with shaz, rubz, grace, wj and jy. exchanged presents and i got some hovering toy..LOL. and yupz...really fun. =) things shldn't change in frenships like this.
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12.25.05 (5:40 am) [edit]
silverstarlet533 says wow thanks, a PRESENT! You pull on the ribbon of your Beautifully Wrapped Present - RIP!, and see a fantastic present inside! (Check your inventory)
neopets is cool! LOL...i got a jinjah bed in e end (dun ask me wat tt is..LOL). but yah..cool.xmas this yr doesn't really feel like xmas maybe coz i din bake anything..and spent it writing minutes for e meeting. yepz. but anyway i have a gd bk with me and neopets...yea!
e tanktops seem quite unwearable i must say. LOL...i think e sleeve holes are too big...really ahz..guys cannot buy clothes for gals one..*shake head* bad taste.
neopets is cool! LOL...i got a jinjah bed in e end (dun ask me wat tt is..LOL). but yah..cool.xmas this yr doesn't really feel like xmas maybe coz i din bake anything..and spent it writing minutes for e meeting. yepz. but anyway i have a gd bk with me and neopets...yea!
e tanktops seem quite unwearable i must say. LOL...i think e sleeve holes are too big...really ahz..guys cannot buy clothes for gals one..*shake head* bad taste.
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12.24.05 (4:15 am) [edit]
alot of tots running thru my mind now..but first...let me wish everyone reading this a merry xmas!! met up with bug, qi, shan, CH today...and did some gift exchanging...i got CH 'Shantaram' my newest fav bk..LOL. got ting, qi and shan e same thing a highlighter tt has 3 colours, a notepad and a small cute box of choc. CH got me 2 tanks tops...e compressed scrunched up kind. cherry red and black prob is...i dun like tank tops..zzz. LOL. qi got me a cup tt says 'sisters!' and has a nice msg. shan got me finger puppets. =) oh yah..being nice and generous i got bug a box of chocs. i told him it's cheap and he said tt tt's no way to give someone their present..LOL.
anyway bug insulted my new fav bk..he said it sounds fake to him..zzz.
now let me tell u some stories.
1. a lil gal was online...talking to e bro of e guy she rejected a couple of yrs back...she was telling e bro abt 'Shantaram' (as u can tell..e gal really does like e bk) then she mentioned tt it's 900+ pgs but she can read it since she has no xmas plans. e bro said 'great! maybe i can date u'. e gal was speechless and e bro then said 'i gtg bye' and remained online anyway. e gal then tot to herself. about e issue of equity. abt e healthy dev of a human being. wld someone be upset if he/she is rejected and her/his sister/brother got e person instead. e gal then thought to herself 'y do things tt seem to only happen on TV happen to me?? zzz'
2. a lil gal got heartbroken...bcoz she saw tt her father was heartbroken. e father went up to her and asked to borrow $200. e lil gal knew that her father had no money and thus came to ask her and she knew that she had pride. she didn't mind lending/giving him of coz. but she didn't want him to grow reliant on hand-outs. so she trampled upon his pride...and he said 'it's okie if u dun want to lend me e money' then e lil gal of coz said she wld lend...but she is thinking of spending it on behalf of her father who says he wants it for 4D. She also can buy for him. the lil gal just wanted her father to be happy and she knew that for him to be truly happy, he cannot use her money. yet he needs her money to satisfy his 'needs' which in this case is e pressing need to buy 4D in case e number comes out as top prize. e lil gal doesn't noe wat wld be best. she is stumped.
3. e lil gal found her hero. someone she can idolize and like. but e hero is like e king bee. but she is just a worker bee. e king bee wanted to have a bbq for his royal family and also wanted to invite frens of e family. e worker bee got e invitation thru a messenger of e royal family and e worker bee was happy and for a few happy moments..e worker bee tot to herself tt maybe e king bee had requested e presence of her group of worker bees specially. but e lil gal bee prob will nvr ask and will nvr find out. her fren, e worker bug bee told her that he wasn't invited and that sometimes in such a colony...there are so many worker bees that they are forgotten. e lil gal bee understood that deep in her heart that one day she too wld be forgotten if she was remembered in e first place. if she was rem in e first place tt is.
4. e lil gal heard a story over TV abt loving and being loved.
a fish lived in e sea. e sea was very much in love with e fish but e fish loved e bird in e sky. one day, e fish told e sea...u don't understand me, you nvr will because u cannot see my tears. e sea said i cannot see ur tears because they become mine once shed, they become part of me...but i can feel ur tears coz they are embedded within my heart.
anyway bug insulted my new fav bk..he said it sounds fake to him..zzz.
now let me tell u some stories.
1. a lil gal was online...talking to e bro of e guy she rejected a couple of yrs back...she was telling e bro abt 'Shantaram' (as u can tell..e gal really does like e bk) then she mentioned tt it's 900+ pgs but she can read it since she has no xmas plans. e bro said 'great! maybe i can date u'. e gal was speechless and e bro then said 'i gtg bye' and remained online anyway. e gal then tot to herself. about e issue of equity. abt e healthy dev of a human being. wld someone be upset if he/she is rejected and her/his sister/brother got e person instead. e gal then thought to herself 'y do things tt seem to only happen on TV happen to me?? zzz'
2. a lil gal got heartbroken...bcoz she saw tt her father was heartbroken. e father went up to her and asked to borrow $200. e lil gal knew that her father had no money and thus came to ask her and she knew that she had pride. she didn't mind lending/giving him of coz. but she didn't want him to grow reliant on hand-outs. so she trampled upon his pride...and he said 'it's okie if u dun want to lend me e money' then e lil gal of coz said she wld lend...but she is thinking of spending it on behalf of her father who says he wants it for 4D. She also can buy for him. the lil gal just wanted her father to be happy and she knew that for him to be truly happy, he cannot use her money. yet he needs her money to satisfy his 'needs' which in this case is e pressing need to buy 4D in case e number comes out as top prize. e lil gal doesn't noe wat wld be best. she is stumped.
3. e lil gal found her hero. someone she can idolize and like. but e hero is like e king bee. but she is just a worker bee. e king bee wanted to have a bbq for his royal family and also wanted to invite frens of e family. e worker bee got e invitation thru a messenger of e royal family and e worker bee was happy and for a few happy moments..e worker bee tot to herself tt maybe e king bee had requested e presence of her group of worker bees specially. but e lil gal bee prob will nvr ask and will nvr find out. her fren, e worker bug bee told her that he wasn't invited and that sometimes in such a colony...there are so many worker bees that they are forgotten. e lil gal bee understood that deep in her heart that one day she too wld be forgotten if she was remembered in e first place. if she was rem in e first place tt is.
4. e lil gal heard a story over TV abt loving and being loved.
a fish lived in e sea. e sea was very much in love with e fish but e fish loved e bird in e sky. one day, e fish told e sea...u don't understand me, you nvr will because u cannot see my tears. e sea said i cannot see ur tears because they become mine once shed, they become part of me...but i can feel ur tears coz they are embedded within my heart.
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12.22.05 (7:27 pm) [edit]
okie..results are out...it's hmmm..acceptable. to M0E and to me i guess. i got one of each A, A-, B+, B, B-. LOL. i must say tt i am a collect them all. y did i get my B- lehz..coz of my stupid geog exposure lahz...see...tt's y i tell M0E i shld do econs (got my A from there) dun believe me!! but see...i am still a more biz and social work person (got my A- from there). oh well...guess tt before i came uni, i really do noe myself well. yepz...always knew i'm more of a biz person or social worker. but really, a teacher can be both.
anyway something also tells me tt i will grow to enjoy geog more. so no fear (though prob not next sem given e lack of variety of choices of mods). now comes e big qn...shld i take 6 mods per sem. my sixth one will prob be an eng lit one or a GEM. hmmmmmm
anyway something also tells me tt i will grow to enjoy geog more. so no fear (though prob not next sem given e lack of variety of choices of mods). now comes e big qn...shld i take 6 mods per sem. my sixth one will prob be an eng lit one or a GEM. hmmmmmm
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12.21.05 (6:38 am) [edit]
my day:
yest: went out with grace for kbox..dunno y but i think my voice not tt gd yest for some reason.anyway after tt went lib and i borrowed more bks...and i've bought prezzies for qi, ting and shan and yepz...bought twine..
today: i overslept!!!!!!! supposed to meet e artsc1ub ppl at 9...i woke up at 910. horror of horrors...first time i'm so seriously late in my life. it felt horrible. anyway so at 910, i brushed my teeth, just wore tshirt and shorts, din eat breakfast and ran to take a cab..then on e cab, i realised tt i forgot to bring e 'bed' which i painstakingly made which is beautiful...which made me feel so zzz...really ahz..i am getting sotong, not gd considering how many projects i have on hand. therefore. i reached betwn 930-940. ran into artsc1ub rm...and well...everyone just bought breakfast...-_-. no choice! so we started slowly eating breakfast and got ppl later than me....so we only started after breakfast!! then we went to e pri sch and e kids were simply chaotic. makes me want to hate kids. LOL. imagine 36 kids running amok. somemore, my grp had 8 kids. imagine me in charge of 8 kids, unable to outshout them. someone one of them named keith ahz. hyperactive manz...wants to play every game...whoever's turn it is...he also want to play for tt person. and he ran everywhere ard e bball court, totally out of control. and e kids were just too dirty-minded for me. spoils my image of nice kids.
anyway yepz. tt's abt it...tiring day manz...kids are so........bursting with energy.
yest: went out with grace for kbox..dunno y but i think my voice not tt gd yest for some reason.anyway after tt went lib and i borrowed more bks...and i've bought prezzies for qi, ting and shan and yepz...bought twine..
today: i overslept!!!!!!! supposed to meet e artsc1ub ppl at 9...i woke up at 910. horror of horrors...first time i'm so seriously late in my life. it felt horrible. anyway so at 910, i brushed my teeth, just wore tshirt and shorts, din eat breakfast and ran to take a cab..then on e cab, i realised tt i forgot to bring e 'bed' which i painstakingly made which is beautiful...which made me feel so zzz...really ahz..i am getting sotong, not gd considering how many projects i have on hand. therefore. i reached betwn 930-940. ran into artsc1ub rm...and well...everyone just bought breakfast...-_-. no choice! so we started slowly eating breakfast and got ppl later than me....so we only started after breakfast!! then we went to e pri sch and e kids were simply chaotic. makes me want to hate kids. LOL. imagine 36 kids running amok. somemore, my grp had 8 kids. imagine me in charge of 8 kids, unable to outshout them. someone one of them named keith ahz. hyperactive manz...wants to play every game...whoever's turn it is...he also want to play for tt person. and he ran everywhere ard e bball court, totally out of control. and e kids were just too dirty-minded for me. spoils my image of nice kids.
anyway yepz. tt's abt it...tiring day manz...kids are so........bursting with energy.
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12.17.05 (10:30 pm) [edit]
wheeee...e workshop really is loads of fun..day two was fun too...ended up i kanna sabo to be i/c of e prog...so tt means tt i'll be even more busy than expected. oh well. nvm...somehow i will cope..NO CHOICE!
anyway...yepz...nvr had so much fun for ages...and it's cool...made these cool bunch of new frens...having a bbq in jan...muahahaha...=) think these ppl will become my gd gd frens really soon...a yr of prog sia.
anyway Y said something to me last nite...he says tt there are many ways to love someone. some ppl want to get into r/s, but he just wants e gal to noe he loves her. then he asked 'u noe?' lol...dun even noe if he meant whether i noe wat he means by e sentence...or more. but watever it is...it was a weight off my mind.
=)
much happier now...since i need not ans for anything...and i have new frens...just tt i got new responsibilities too.
*PS: these ppl love kbox...wheeeee...i foresee more singing.
anyway...yepz...nvr had so much fun for ages...and it's cool...made these cool bunch of new frens...having a bbq in jan...muahahaha...=) think these ppl will become my gd gd frens really soon...a yr of prog sia.
anyway Y said something to me last nite...he says tt there are many ways to love someone. some ppl want to get into r/s, but he just wants e gal to noe he loves her. then he asked 'u noe?' lol...dun even noe if he meant whether i noe wat he means by e sentence...or more. but watever it is...it was a weight off my mind.
=)
much happier now...since i need not ans for anything...and i have new frens...just tt i got new responsibilities too.
*PS: these ppl love kbox...wheeeee...i foresee more singing.
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12.15.05 (5:33 am) [edit]
Wow..my horoscope for today...pretty accurate...at least e pepy, full of vigor part is...
You're feeling peppy, and full of vim and vigor. Luckily, your sparkly energy is exactly what's needed to draw an equally energetic romantic prospect into your web. It's a match made in heaven!
My HAPPY day:
feel like i'm in childcare...going back tmr..LOL...
i went to e centre a tired lil gal asleep on e bus. reached there tired...din feel like talking to anyone...then we had an extremely successful ice breaker. toss-e-ball. though they call it catch-no-ball at e centre. then we were in a circle..and so happy. coz meng threw e ball at me...then i think e ball is too light?? coz just masking tape and newspaper inside...coz i threw (with i believe a lil too much force) coz it went bang against Rob's chest and e rm froze for a moment as his face read 'ouch'..LOL...then everyone laffed and commented i'm violent. then e balls started adding on...until we had 5...=) it was almost chaos..but still fun as we dissolve in laughter.
then we played this 'who-am-i' game...we all had an occupation pasted behind us...and we're supposed to guess wat we are by asking others qns with yes or no answers...LOL...i took forever to guess and everyone was giving me hints...
coz...i'm a cleaner!! LOL
okie...wat else...then we did this presentation thing on mahjong paper...happy coz i drew an xmas tree and santa. then i presented my grp's work (i just love addressing ppl)...and i did it barefooted!!!! making me all e more happier...i like doing things barefooted i realise. i'm weird. presenting makes me happy, but doing it barefooted makes me all e more happier. anyway after tt Meng commented tt we must be telepathic..coz he was just thinking abt y all our grps got no pics on our presentations. =) and i pioneered an xmas tree...=) =)
Then...we did this line up thing...first we can talk. then no talking. then no hands. then no using of legs to 'write' alphabets...and my grp just anyhow sit down lorz...nvr discuss anything...then Meng and J e befrender were like 'huh..so fast?' coz we just anyhow walk and sat down...and we were correct!!!!!! they were stunned. see my grp's com has reached e nirvana stage..dunnit to use even body lang..LOL..we com with our hearts. (crap.) then in e end..my grp won by 0.1 pts...coz we just got 0.1 pts as bonus pts lahz...forgot y...so e scores were 10, 13, 13.1 so we won. LOL
then we has a talking competition...of which meng asked for a volunteer and everyone turned to look at me. anyway meng said 2 mins talk non-stop...piece of cake. sure win one! 2mins...no kick. 10 mins then maybe mouth will be dry...LOL. anyway of coz i nvr say tt..so bhb (though no one said tt talking non-stop is a gd thing). anyway so i was unanimously nominated. then i needed a competitor...to which everyone said dunnit coz i sure win anyway. so after much consideration, they fielded derek(D) so Meng said in tt case, it's a guy vs gal competition then D was like rapping...and i sounded like i'm scolding ppl...we looks hilarious...everyone was laffing until they were tearing...coz we were talking abt totally diff things...and he was listing all e sauces tt mac has...tomato, chilli, bbq, sweet and sour, wasabi..watever. and i was complaining abt e wanton mee stall at clementi hawker. until we started having a conversation (which both of us talking at e same time) abt KFC vs mac...coz he's a mac member and i'm a chicky club member....LOL..and it ended when i said tt e south asia lect looks like colonel. LOL. coz he laffed then i kept asking him to cont talking to me...everyone laff until they died in e rm...damn funny...so i was winner!!! and all e gals got mentos..LOL...
thus after such a fulfilling day of learning and playing...i went with qi to town so she can get tickets to kingkong for this sat to go with luis. then we went and watched ms ong's personal ch0ir sing. lalala...they not enuf altos so ms ong had to sing e alto part...too bad. i dun join elitist societies tt break e alumni tradition. fun catching up with stro, XM, edi. though stro said e F word to me like 4 times tonite...then being slightly put off i commented abt it to XM who went and scolded stro. after tt for e rest of e nite, stro din say another F word to me...=) wat nice students i have.
after tt...i went dinner with qi and CH who decided to come see us...so we had KFC since i was inspired from e talking competition. yah. dun like CH now at least...cheese fries rox though. then on e bus home, i saw shan. then she asked y i wasn't surprised to see her...then i said 'not tt improbable tt i shld run into her' since we always go town...and e bus is e only one from town to our place (she lives few blocks from me) then i said i am unfazed by e exp..and she said she dun like cool ppl...yea...i'm cool...no choice. she still likes me...wheeeeee.
*looking fwd to playing more tmr*
You're feeling peppy, and full of vim and vigor. Luckily, your sparkly energy is exactly what's needed to draw an equally energetic romantic prospect into your web. It's a match made in heaven!
My HAPPY day:
feel like i'm in childcare...going back tmr..LOL...
i went to e centre a tired lil gal asleep on e bus. reached there tired...din feel like talking to anyone...then we had an extremely successful ice breaker. toss-e-ball. though they call it catch-no-ball at e centre. then we were in a circle..and so happy. coz meng threw e ball at me...then i think e ball is too light?? coz just masking tape and newspaper inside...coz i threw (with i believe a lil too much force) coz it went bang against Rob's chest and e rm froze for a moment as his face read 'ouch'..LOL...then everyone laffed and commented i'm violent. then e balls started adding on...until we had 5...=) it was almost chaos..but still fun as we dissolve in laughter.
then we played this 'who-am-i' game...we all had an occupation pasted behind us...and we're supposed to guess wat we are by asking others qns with yes or no answers...LOL...i took forever to guess and everyone was giving me hints...
coz...i'm a cleaner!! LOL
okie...wat else...then we did this presentation thing on mahjong paper...happy coz i drew an xmas tree and santa. then i presented my grp's work (i just love addressing ppl)...and i did it barefooted!!!! making me all e more happier...i like doing things barefooted i realise. i'm weird. presenting makes me happy, but doing it barefooted makes me all e more happier. anyway after tt Meng commented tt we must be telepathic..coz he was just thinking abt y all our grps got no pics on our presentations. =) and i pioneered an xmas tree...=) =)
Then...we did this line up thing...first we can talk. then no talking. then no hands. then no using of legs to 'write' alphabets...and my grp just anyhow sit down lorz...nvr discuss anything...then Meng and J e befrender were like 'huh..so fast?' coz we just anyhow walk and sat down...and we were correct!!!!!! they were stunned. see my grp's com has reached e nirvana stage..dunnit to use even body lang..LOL..we com with our hearts. (crap.) then in e end..my grp won by 0.1 pts...coz we just got 0.1 pts as bonus pts lahz...forgot y...so e scores were 10, 13, 13.1 so we won. LOL
then we has a talking competition...of which meng asked for a volunteer and everyone turned to look at me. anyway meng said 2 mins talk non-stop...piece of cake. sure win one! 2mins...no kick. 10 mins then maybe mouth will be dry...LOL. anyway of coz i nvr say tt..so bhb (though no one said tt talking non-stop is a gd thing). anyway so i was unanimously nominated. then i needed a competitor...to which everyone said dunnit coz i sure win anyway. so after much consideration, they fielded derek(D) so Meng said in tt case, it's a guy vs gal competition then D was like rapping...and i sounded like i'm scolding ppl...we looks hilarious...everyone was laffing until they were tearing...coz we were talking abt totally diff things...and he was listing all e sauces tt mac has...tomato, chilli, bbq, sweet and sour, wasabi..watever. and i was complaining abt e wanton mee stall at clementi hawker. until we started having a conversation (which both of us talking at e same time) abt KFC vs mac...coz he's a mac member and i'm a chicky club member....LOL..and it ended when i said tt e south asia lect looks like colonel. LOL. coz he laffed then i kept asking him to cont talking to me...everyone laff until they died in e rm...damn funny...so i was winner!!! and all e gals got mentos..LOL...
thus after such a fulfilling day of learning and playing...i went with qi to town so she can get tickets to kingkong for this sat to go with luis. then we went and watched ms ong's personal ch0ir sing. lalala...they not enuf altos so ms ong had to sing e alto part...too bad. i dun join elitist societies tt break e alumni tradition. fun catching up with stro, XM, edi. though stro said e F word to me like 4 times tonite...then being slightly put off i commented abt it to XM who went and scolded stro. after tt for e rest of e nite, stro din say another F word to me...=) wat nice students i have.
after tt...i went dinner with qi and CH who decided to come see us...so we had KFC since i was inspired from e talking competition. yah. dun like CH now at least...cheese fries rox though. then on e bus home, i saw shan. then she asked y i wasn't surprised to see her...then i said 'not tt improbable tt i shld run into her' since we always go town...and e bus is e only one from town to our place (she lives few blocks from me) then i said i am unfazed by e exp..and she said she dun like cool ppl...yea...i'm cool...no choice. she still likes me...wheeeeee.
*looking fwd to playing more tmr*
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12.14.05 (5:16 am) [edit]
today me qi and shan went out..ting backed out coz she was totally drained from some family issues...ting's life seems to be forever filled with probs...but is it really so or is it a matter of coping skills?? really dunno how to help ting sometimes...think she needs someone who's more well-versed in counselling and skills imparting to help her...but it's difficult to do a referral as well since i dun think she'll react well to it.
anyway...coz i was out today...i was lucky...i managed to borrow Shantaram from e lib!! LOL. that kinda combatted my rather unhappy mood from last nite...which continued from my conversation with LM..funny...but i seem to feel like telling everything to LM...some connection somehow...feel like pouring all my woes to her...telling her more than i ever told anyone..and funny...she seems to see me as a confidant as well...we've only been on each others' MSN for 2 days. but i find it quite hard to give her advice..since when i say will have a direct bearing on chian...
but anyway after speaking to LM i cldn't get to sleep till 3+am...thinking abt wat she said. she asked if it's correct to love someone for e way he loves u. and she said tt she realised tt it's hard to find such a person anyway...but i beg to differ as i told her. on tt note, i went offline since it was like close to 3am...then i asked myself once again...wat i'm doing with my life. i started listing e ppl who have in some way told me they like me...i realised tt halfway thru i lost count (coz i forgot ter)...and after some counting..reached a total of 10 with vin as e last one. of e 10, i loved e way 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 ppl loved me...not bad wat..50% hit. yet, strangely i accepted no one.
which leads me to my next decision...i feel like going to tt si ma lu temple thing and qui qian...i believe it will be a xia xia qian for e yin yuan part...but i just want to noe it...it's like if i think it's fate..maybe i will feel better bahz...besides i can burn it and supposedly things will improve. As quoted from Jane Eyre: It is foolish to say that one cannot bear what fate has for one to bear.
i just want to noe if it's fate. i need fate to be e scapegoat. so that i can laugh coldly and say 'no choice..'
anyway...coz i was out today...i was lucky...i managed to borrow Shantaram from e lib!! LOL. that kinda combatted my rather unhappy mood from last nite...which continued from my conversation with LM..funny...but i seem to feel like telling everything to LM...some connection somehow...feel like pouring all my woes to her...telling her more than i ever told anyone..and funny...she seems to see me as a confidant as well...we've only been on each others' MSN for 2 days. but i find it quite hard to give her advice..since when i say will have a direct bearing on chian...
but anyway after speaking to LM i cldn't get to sleep till 3+am...thinking abt wat she said. she asked if it's correct to love someone for e way he loves u. and she said tt she realised tt it's hard to find such a person anyway...but i beg to differ as i told her. on tt note, i went offline since it was like close to 3am...then i asked myself once again...wat i'm doing with my life. i started listing e ppl who have in some way told me they like me...i realised tt halfway thru i lost count (coz i forgot ter)...and after some counting..reached a total of 10 with vin as e last one. of e 10, i loved e way 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 ppl loved me...not bad wat..50% hit. yet, strangely i accepted no one.
which leads me to my next decision...i feel like going to tt si ma lu temple thing and qui qian...i believe it will be a xia xia qian for e yin yuan part...but i just want to noe it...it's like if i think it's fate..maybe i will feel better bahz...besides i can burn it and supposedly things will improve. As quoted from Jane Eyre: It is foolish to say that one cannot bear what fate has for one to bear.
i just want to noe if it's fate. i need fate to be e scapegoat. so that i can laugh coldly and say 'no choice..'
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12.12.05 (6:12 am) [edit]
great day today with e sea and e sun..although e sand was simply irritating and e sun was just too hot for my liking. prefer e warm sunshine kind..oh well..anyway i'm like sunburnt now...tiink my arms and legs look nicer tan but my face looks not as nice..LOL...now i noe y gals like to have fair complexion but tan bodies...though it'll look weird overdone...LOL...funny.
anyway...yah..today while talking to rubz...i broached e subj of y i seem to reject every guy again...i feel like going to tt guan yin miao thing and draw those lots thing...for ying yuan...i believe it must be a xia xia qian...
anyway...yah..today while talking to rubz...i broached e subj of y i seem to reject every guy again...i feel like going to tt guan yin miao thing and draw those lots thing...for ying yuan...i believe it must be a xia xia qian...
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12.10.05 (6:10 am) [edit]
today i did my share of carolling for this season..it's like opening up pandora's box...and i won't be able to close it at least for a while...i miss singing so so much...having members of e audience swaying to ur singing unconsciously..having lil kids dancing ard as if e world is theirs for keeps...having ppl smile as ur music remind them of better days...having ppl taking photos of u...videotaping u..miss those days...today i relived it for e briefest 15 mins of my life...=)
i realised y AC is going so strong when some ppl do say tt they are dao/useless etc. it's coz of their spirit...they're very united...when one cell has an event...many of e MC ppl turn up...and they were like cheering, taking pics, videotaping and when it ended...they will tell e ppl involved tt it was a gd job...tt's spirit. =)
looking fwd to more activities with these ppl...=) and getting them into my activities...it'll be a crazy and fun uni life ahead...=)
i realised y AC is going so strong when some ppl do say tt they are dao/useless etc. it's coz of their spirit...they're very united...when one cell has an event...many of e MC ppl turn up...and they were like cheering, taking pics, videotaping and when it ended...they will tell e ppl involved tt it was a gd job...tt's spirit. =)
looking fwd to more activities with these ppl...=) and getting them into my activities...it'll be a crazy and fun uni life ahead...=)
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12.08.05 (2:31 am) [edit]
i believe it would suffice to say that i have been too busy to blog these days...been doing some of my sch activities stuff...though it's quite hectic..it is quite fun and fulfilling though my dad complains tt since my study break started...i have only stayed home on 3 days...LOL...when is quite pathetic really. i miss my home...
well...yepz...and i am currently struggling with yahoo grps in trying to invite ppl into my grp...totally frustrating...i am so not an IT person...
okie..in a nutcase, AC ppl do rox...quite a fun bunch...carolling with them is totally fun...=D. yepz...and i'll prob be going to go bai nian with them too..
yepz..and tmr i got GC meeting and i plan to go see e whole pjch0ir in action...been some time since i saw them as a whole..yepz...=) sat and sun i'll be carolling...pls do not come and watch me..LOL..
lastly...i need to pack my table..coz i cannot find my organizer to record ppl's bdays into e new one...and i can't rem bdays...damn
well...yepz...and i am currently struggling with yahoo grps in trying to invite ppl into my grp...totally frustrating...i am so not an IT person...
okie..in a nutcase, AC ppl do rox...quite a fun bunch...carolling with them is totally fun...=D. yepz...and i'll prob be going to go bai nian with them too..
yepz..and tmr i got GC meeting and i plan to go see e whole pjch0ir in action...been some time since i saw them as a whole..yepz...=) sat and sun i'll be carolling...pls do not come and watch me..LOL..
lastly...i need to pack my table..coz i cannot find my organizer to record ppl's bdays into e new one...and i can't rem bdays...damn
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12.04.05 (6:41 am) [edit]
2nd Dec Fri: er...if i rem correctly, on this day, me rubz, shaz and grace went kbox...it was e session when i sang e most number of happy songs...=) after tt we went for coffee at taka coffee bean...then after we left...qi and CH went there...then after rubz grace and shaz went off...me, qi and CH went to watch e choir carol...=) they're much much much better now..then after watching them carol, we went for BK..nearly died eating..coz CH say cannot waste food or drink...then qi cannot eat le...i din want CH to die eating...so i helped him eat...in e end...both of us starting eating as if we are robots...then i cldn't finish my drink and he started drinking it..lucky his phone rang...i snatched it e drink back and finished it.
3rd Dec Sat: e nite i got upset...but in e day, me grace rubin WJ and JY went out.had this super big crispy combo meant for 5 ppl. after tt we walked ard...i bought e dan brown box set and in my effort in not killing e earth, i decided to resist peer pressure and not giftwrap e box...zzz.after all, it's for myself...then me and grace went see e choir...zui ou xiang...then i saw E...somehow seeing E just transported me back to e times when we were happily goofing ard...walking upside down, squeezing into e same chair, asking me stupid geog qns...e times when i tot maybe something was/is/wld be going on...then after tt at nite we were chatting on msn as if time nvr lapsed. thus adding on to e confusion of my life. then yah..ting pissed me off.
4th Dec Sun: went kbox with bro and sock 11 to 3...it was fun...=) we sang alot of jay chou though as expected...bro very shy and not confident enuf to try high notes....but okie lahz...he sings quite normally and in tune when it's analog...when we off it...hohoho...bro needs warm up songs...but of coz although he has not inherited my singing genes..he's still my fav bro. after tt..from 3 to abt 630 me qi and CH sang Kbox...i moved from rm 13 to rm 2...LOL..at cine. singing with sock and bro is funny coz we try to kill each other..LOL...with qi and CH rite..qi dunno y suddenly today sing so softly even with mic...but she seems to be more able to reach e high notes...CH has a very raw and rough voice tt proclaims tt it is not accustomed to singing anything...too early to say if it's a nice voice. e funniest thing was tt this person came and asked if we want take tt instant photo thing..i wanted to say no but CH started asking abt it...then he said okie?? LOL...it's like $21 for 3...rip-off manz...but CH so funny..he wanted to take it and pay for all of us...so now each of us have 1...in diff poses. qi got e normal classic pose one...i got e one with CH really close to me and him putting tt bunny ears thing behind qi's head and qi's hand being too short failed to reach his head well..LOL!! and CH got e one with him making a gui lian...i din say it then...but his gui lian reminded me of da's guilian...e neoprint tt i nvr had e guts to select to print it into existence...e one of him pouting his lips really near my face. i'll not make e same mistake again. i tot da liked me but i ended up being wrong so i'll not draw e same surmise from e same pose.
anyway he was funny...he said he got too much money and wanted to pay for us. and since qi left early she went off. but i saw e bill..zzz...it was 21 for e photos and 60 for e session..tt's like 80...zzzzzzz...and i tot i was too rich with money rotting in e bank and he just laffed at me when i said i shld pay for my share since my money is rotting. but he looked really cool when he signed e POSB credit card thing...i guess tt's y guys like to fight to pay..it's e MCP image of coolness...like i am bigger than u. then being e nice person he is...he walked me to DFS from cine and took bus from there instead to go meet his frens for dinner which he was totally apologetic abt...but aiyah...can't expect him to watch choir everyday and have no other plans. well...end up my yu gan was rite..i cld not find e choir so i smsed him to tell him tt as an act of courtesy and he started comforting me...too nice le....too nice is not gd
how do u noe tt i love something...u noe when i race up e escalators and listen so intently for it. tt's when u noe i love something.
tmr i got meeting for e performance thing with arts club...after tt prob i'll be meeting qi and CH again...looking at our picture...i dun want it to shatter....we can just forever be happy frens trying to hide during singing while we exaggerate how perfect e other is...
3rd Dec Sat: e nite i got upset...but in e day, me grace rubin WJ and JY went out.had this super big crispy combo meant for 5 ppl. after tt we walked ard...i bought e dan brown box set and in my effort in not killing e earth, i decided to resist peer pressure and not giftwrap e box...zzz.after all, it's for myself...then me and grace went see e choir...zui ou xiang...then i saw E...somehow seeing E just transported me back to e times when we were happily goofing ard...walking upside down, squeezing into e same chair, asking me stupid geog qns...e times when i tot maybe something was/is/wld be going on...then after tt at nite we were chatting on msn as if time nvr lapsed. thus adding on to e confusion of my life. then yah..ting pissed me off.
4th Dec Sun: went kbox with bro and sock 11 to 3...it was fun...=) we sang alot of jay chou though as expected...bro very shy and not confident enuf to try high notes....but okie lahz...he sings quite normally and in tune when it's analog...when we off it...hohoho...bro needs warm up songs...but of coz although he has not inherited my singing genes..he's still my fav bro. after tt..from 3 to abt 630 me qi and CH sang Kbox...i moved from rm 13 to rm 2...LOL..at cine. singing with sock and bro is funny coz we try to kill each other..LOL...with qi and CH rite..qi dunno y suddenly today sing so softly even with mic...but she seems to be more able to reach e high notes...CH has a very raw and rough voice tt proclaims tt it is not accustomed to singing anything...too early to say if it's a nice voice. e funniest thing was tt this person came and asked if we want take tt instant photo thing..i wanted to say no but CH started asking abt it...then he said okie?? LOL...it's like $21 for 3...rip-off manz...but CH so funny..he wanted to take it and pay for all of us...so now each of us have 1...in diff poses. qi got e normal classic pose one...i got e one with CH really close to me and him putting tt bunny ears thing behind qi's head and qi's hand being too short failed to reach his head well..LOL!! and CH got e one with him making a gui lian...i din say it then...but his gui lian reminded me of da's guilian...e neoprint tt i nvr had e guts to select to print it into existence...e one of him pouting his lips really near my face. i'll not make e same mistake again. i tot da liked me but i ended up being wrong so i'll not draw e same surmise from e same pose.
anyway he was funny...he said he got too much money and wanted to pay for us. and since qi left early she went off. but i saw e bill..zzz...it was 21 for e photos and 60 for e session..tt's like 80...zzzzzzz...and i tot i was too rich with money rotting in e bank and he just laffed at me when i said i shld pay for my share since my money is rotting. but he looked really cool when he signed e POSB credit card thing...i guess tt's y guys like to fight to pay..it's e MCP image of coolness...like i am bigger than u. then being e nice person he is...he walked me to DFS from cine and took bus from there instead to go meet his frens for dinner which he was totally apologetic abt...but aiyah...can't expect him to watch choir everyday and have no other plans. well...end up my yu gan was rite..i cld not find e choir so i smsed him to tell him tt as an act of courtesy and he started comforting me...too nice le....too nice is not gd
how do u noe tt i love something...u noe when i race up e escalators and listen so intently for it. tt's when u noe i love something.
tmr i got meeting for e performance thing with arts club...after tt prob i'll be meeting qi and CH again...looking at our picture...i dun want it to shatter....we can just forever be happy frens trying to hide during singing while we exaggerate how perfect e other is...
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12.03.05 (6:06 am) [edit]
my heart really ahz...piang piang piang le...ting msged me on msn and asked if i want to join ong's personal choir...well..it appears tt everyone is so busy thinking abt it and making money out of e caroling (abt $20 per session tt they do) tt they have forgot all abt e original choir. leaving them to sing to air and passing shoppers...no support to them whatsoever. i was puzzled yest...how come only F turned up..and today none of e j2s turned up. as i stood there...clapping for them...my claps resounding in e silence ard me...i tot...where are e j2s?? like von? da? e other ex com members?? aren't they in e com coz they were enthu abt choir?
apparently they are...but now their loyalty lies with a diff choir. then ting had to come and ask me if i want to join e personal choir. wat an elitist society. i told her no. u dunnit tt $20 per session tt has made ppl forget abt pjch0ir. just dun. and when i asked XM if he's going to go see e personal choir thingie...he said maybe he edi YH and JT may go...which made me think...y is there such a clear divide betwn e 2 choirs when one grew out of e other.
how can one join e new, more prestigious one and forget abt e old one? maybe for me, i will nvr forget e old just coz i qualify for e more prestigious. maybe i'm silly. tt's y i stayed in pj. tt's y i won't forget e original. coz there is just this silly streak in me tt ppl may think only old ppl possess. and i think i am making ting guilty now...by pointing out tt pjch0ir seems to have lost all its supporters. thus she said maybe she'll come on one of e days.
humans. such forgetful animals.
no wonder today CJ looked so emotional when she thanked me for coming. coz well..no one bothers anymore. wat's e pt of having e choir grow in strength when they lose all their alumni. like totally lose them. lose all their supporters. just coz something more prestigious beckons.
i was happy today till i found out abt this. happy until this. how come no one told me. no wonder dee asked ting to ask me instead of asking me by herself to join e personal choir thing. in case i chide her.
even if i turned back time..there is nothing i cld have done. nothing. so no point blaming myself. funny how until now i still get so emotional over ch0ir. mamaleong is rite...it's my baby...a mother can nvr give up on her baby no matter how old it becomes.
and ting just disappointed me further..for $20. she may not be meeting me, qi and shan on xmas eve. like thanks. if we each pay her 7 bucks..making it $21, will she come?? well. i won't do tt..coz it wld mean singing is worth 20 bucks and our frenship is worth 21 bucks. thanks. tt is how derogratory.
my choir...............piang piang piang.
update abt my days when i'm in a slightly better mood..but it wld suffice to say tt i had great fun today and yest.
but now....i just wish ting nvr asked me abt e personal choir thing...=S. can i wish money was nvr invented?? and tt ong nvr came up with tt stupid idea of a personal choir?? maybe then noeing they'll have to bring cows home..they wld rather come watch pjch0ir.
apparently they are...but now their loyalty lies with a diff choir. then ting had to come and ask me if i want to join e personal choir. wat an elitist society. i told her no. u dunnit tt $20 per session tt has made ppl forget abt pjch0ir. just dun. and when i asked XM if he's going to go see e personal choir thingie...he said maybe he edi YH and JT may go...which made me think...y is there such a clear divide betwn e 2 choirs when one grew out of e other.
how can one join e new, more prestigious one and forget abt e old one? maybe for me, i will nvr forget e old just coz i qualify for e more prestigious. maybe i'm silly. tt's y i stayed in pj. tt's y i won't forget e original. coz there is just this silly streak in me tt ppl may think only old ppl possess. and i think i am making ting guilty now...by pointing out tt pjch0ir seems to have lost all its supporters. thus she said maybe she'll come on one of e days.
humans. such forgetful animals.
no wonder today CJ looked so emotional when she thanked me for coming. coz well..no one bothers anymore. wat's e pt of having e choir grow in strength when they lose all their alumni. like totally lose them. lose all their supporters. just coz something more prestigious beckons.
i was happy today till i found out abt this. happy until this. how come no one told me. no wonder dee asked ting to ask me instead of asking me by herself to join e personal choir thing. in case i chide her.
even if i turned back time..there is nothing i cld have done. nothing. so no point blaming myself. funny how until now i still get so emotional over ch0ir. mamaleong is rite...it's my baby...a mother can nvr give up on her baby no matter how old it becomes.
and ting just disappointed me further..for $20. she may not be meeting me, qi and shan on xmas eve. like thanks. if we each pay her 7 bucks..making it $21, will she come?? well. i won't do tt..coz it wld mean singing is worth 20 bucks and our frenship is worth 21 bucks. thanks. tt is how derogratory.
my choir...............piang piang piang.
update abt my days when i'm in a slightly better mood..but it wld suffice to say tt i had great fun today and yest.
but now....i just wish ting nvr asked me abt e personal choir thing...=S. can i wish money was nvr invented?? and tt ong nvr came up with tt stupid idea of a personal choir?? maybe then noeing they'll have to bring cows home..they wld rather come watch pjch0ir.
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12.01.05 (6:39 am) [edit]
yea...my frens rox...frens rox coz we dun expect too much from them most of e time so everything's special...bug is so nice to come up with a cool idea for my camp...=) tell u ppl more when i see u ppl!!
anyway...unfortunately tt's e end of e happy news...a hmmmm..weird news which shld be effectively psychoanalysed some day is e fact tt Y having presented himself as a childish and selfish idiot has induced me to wish not to meet ter on sat for some reason...obscure reason tt prob my conscious mind does not understand...
anyway...sun is a singing day for me...going kbox then after tt going to this church to learn some xmas carols...=) just hope my throat does not die on me...anyway i'm going kbox tmr too...think i might as well LIVE in kbox..zzz...wheee
Dec has always been a fun month...=) with tons of singing. given tt it's hols and kbox is round e corner and xmas carols are e hype and tradition...=)
anyway...unfortunately tt's e end of e happy news...a hmmmm..weird news which shld be effectively psychoanalysed some day is e fact tt Y having presented himself as a childish and selfish idiot has induced me to wish not to meet ter on sat for some reason...obscure reason tt prob my conscious mind does not understand...
anyway...sun is a singing day for me...going kbox then after tt going to this church to learn some xmas carols...=) just hope my throat does not die on me...anyway i'm going kbox tmr too...think i might as well LIVE in kbox..zzz...wheee
Dec has always been a fun month...=) with tons of singing. given tt it's hols and kbox is round e corner and xmas carols are e hype and tradition...=)