kit's realm

thanks for hurting me.

yest...i was talking to Y online...and his nick was something like 'i can do w/o many things with no hardships but not you' so i asked him casually wat it means. then he started saying damn mushy stuff?? which made me feel really weird...coz he was still using e 'you' pronoun like 'means i cannot live w/o you'. which made me feel soooo weird...like usu one will change e you in e nick to 'someone'. then he started babbling all mushy stuff with e 'you' pronoun to me?? then i din noe wat to say. so i just acted as if 'you' is not 'me' and said ok and tt it was romantic of him...and he started being so happy and saying tt he's glad i think so...zzzzzzz

then...he changed e msn chat window bckgrd to this heart shape, pink+red bckgrd thingie and stupidly clicked yes to e 'share bckgrd with fren' option. and thus....e bckgrd was sent as a file to me...when made me so sianz diaoz i rejected e file transfer. sianz. i mean like how dumb lahz...i dunno y i'm upset by it as well...guess i dun want to be e one responsible for his nicks...as if i tricked him into giving me his feelings when he cld have given it to a more deserving party. maybe i'm upset coz i dun want him to impose upon me e notion tt he cannot live w/o me..when i noe very well tt we cannot poss live with each other.

i am but fulfilling his wish to nvr have to break up with any gal again. bcoz i noe tt i cannot get attached to him coz i will break with him. in fact i wld want to break ASAP. hence...y go thru all e trouble. he's selfish to suggest he cannot live w/o me...coz i will be unable to live with him...even if he can put aside his ideological beliefs...his attachments to religion, family, everything. i noe tt i cannot and i will be unable to accept someone like tt.

since he cannot live w/o me and i cannot live with him...i choose to let him learn how to live w/o me (anyway he's alive now) rather to bend my beliefs for him.

[i]i can still survive w/o anything in this world, w/o love, frens, money, family...i can survive....but there simply are things i cannot live with...[/i]

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my past 2 days:

Tues: okie..had my lit paper...it wasn't too gd..but oh well..not tt bad either. after tt me, rubz, shaz, matt and val went for dinner at MM. so funny...witnessed e workings of peer pressure..coz sharon and rubin went off to do something...and me val and matt were odering...then they were like such nice non-alcoholic ppl..then i mentioned tt i think me, rubz and shaz will be drinking beer then they stared at me...so i we like erm...pressure manz...from inside and outside...in e end..e closer pressure won...i really a mango twist....y is their blender still spoilt...zzzzzz...=( anyway...yah. so we hanged ard...talked rubbish...acted a lil drunk though none of us drank...then when we were going hm...it started pouring...LOL...so all of us got wet and due to my horrible umbrella holding skills, me and rubin turned out to be e casualties...LOL.

Wed aka today: woke up..and i went meet qi and CH...they were studying while i read comics and e bks in e lib..after tt suddenly qi started crying...think coz she cannot rem wat she's studying?? then CH told me to go after her when she ran off...so i frantically grabbed my slippers (yah...i weren't wearing them) then i started to give chase while wearing my slippers..LOL...anyway qi was easy to cheer up...soon we were laughing and CH looked puzzle when we got back both looking happy. btw....CH bought me a meal today...=) but nahz...i think overall it's just not possible...oh well.

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to add:

i wanted a photo of e food but it's already in my tummy so i asked qi to take a photo of it..but it's already in her tummy too so this can only mean one thing...shall have to ask CH to make them again so i can take my photo..LOL...(i am a greedy pig).

anyway when i smsed him to tell him his food's nice...he told me to rem to zzz late...LOL...how totful...coz i mentioned in passing tt i shld zzz late tonite since my paper is at 5pm tmr...=) and i told him to go zzz early and he said he'll try and said nitez...coz he went try..LOL..so ting hua...=)

tmr lit le...argh..last paper...let me just mention my CA mk can le...i dun as for too much...of coz...better is better..i am always greedy

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went JE lib again today to read my bks along with qi and CH studying their stuff...qi was doing some bio thingie today and wow..i rem abit...anyway i saw e banner tt said 'campus entrance'...and i suddenly tot...hey...wasn't e old campus of pj like here?? so i had to sms Y to ask since he stays in JE and studied for a yr at e old campus and his ans was affirmative...e old campus looks quite rundown..LOL...but it looks like a great place for adventure (nitewalks, exploring undergrd classrms etc)...anyway becoz of my totally innocent qn...Y said he's like near JE lib and tt he wants to come see me...so he did come...

then i din quite noe wat to say to him also...and dunno lahz...so liddat lorz..we chat for a while...then he went off...yah. LOL. and he seems quite concerned abt CH..LOL..damn funny...he asked if CH is my bf then i was like no...LOL...and now tt i'm online he changed tactic and asked abt CH and qi...and awww...Y said i look as lovely as ever...he's thinner though..hard life ahz

okie...and i just ate e most heavenly stuff in e world...pastry by CH...as in made by him...he's damn free nvr zzz for 5 nites...and made pastries on e 5th nite?? damn weird priorities...but they're gd...there's this choc ball thing...and this cheese tart tt has blueberry in it...suddenly i'm damn awake after eating them..LOL. =D. so in e end...e first person to make food for me is CH...oh well.

okie..and something funny..funny of e day: i am now a chicky club member (yah...e KFC one)...LOL!! joined it for fun...and i have 10% discount for KFC and PIZZA HUT!! muahahahaha...prepare for me brandishing my card ard...and wow...i got a free goodie bag with membership...erm....it contains chicky club mechandise...got pencils, sharpener, a 'briefcase', folders, colouring bks...so i carried e goodie bag ard for e whole day..LOL..invited some stares...lucky got CH's paper bag with e pastries to help me cover.

anyway it was fun today lahz..we made noise in e lib as usu...coz CH nvr zzz for 5 days...then qi was next to him...so she told him to drink more water to freshen his breath...then he dared not speak after tt and just kept 'hmm-ing' away...and my lit must have made me a better observer of rhythm, stresses and expression with hand actions...coz i was damn gd at guessing wat he's trying to say...LOL...AND e highlight is..i managed to trick him into joining my prog cell and help with driving us ard for camp! =D smart me. Qi's idea...she said all i have to do is look really sad...so i acted sad...then he was like hmmhmmhmmmmmm. yah..he hmm-ed tt...coz he din want to talk...and it meant...okie...wat u want me to do..and he'll do anything (damn easy to bully)

wheee...i finished reading Lolita...reading Kafka now...full of energy...wonder wat he put in e food manz..some drug izzit..so high.

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under grace's request:

random fact abt me 1:
i love KFC large whipped potato...e one tt looks like a drum and i believe tt eating it gives me a warm fuzzy warmth.

random fact abt me 2:
i tend to fall for ppl who dun like me...and not like ppl who like me. for obscure reasons still unknown to myself.

random fact abt me 3:
i have quite some money rotting in the bank fulfilling no purpose (not even collecting interest. 0.125% is almost negligable.

random fact abt me 4:
i am naturally attracted to shiny things like a magpie

random fact abt me 5:
i did not noe a eng word until i was 5...(besides hi and hahaha i suppose)

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today: i went help ting's sis with econs...she's only at elasticity now...LOL..but her poly's weird...they did macro last sem...then now then do micro...then i was telling tt tt rem last sem when i helped her with macro...i used some of e micro principles...anyway it was fun helping her....we did econs for an hr...i answered all her qns...then we talk cock for 1.5 hrs...then after tt...i decided to meet qi and CH...so i went over to JE and this guy waylaid me and told me all abt prudential savings plan...LOL..sounded gd...see how...okie..so lib...there was no place for me to sit...then e guy next to qi whom we all dunno looked so awkward...like shld be move away..then CH was like saying i can take his seat (oh gdness...i realised tt CH can be chian, qi's fren as well as charlie holmes from Lolita)...okie...anyway...i was like no?? sometimes i really think tt CH's personality is just too nice...and i was telling qi this...when a person is too nice...it can be stressful for e ppl ard him/her too...then after tt...he was hungry but he nvr say so me and qi went lunch and he stayed there to look after e laptop....then me and qi realised it and i treated him to bread..LOL...qi picked choc muffin and i picked applewerm...and i paid coz i wanted to break e note and pay qi back her money for e meal...

so we got back...and handed him e bread and he said thanks and walked off...then when he came back i jokingly said 'so rude ahz...buy u thing u nvr open up and see wat's inside??' then he apologized and said tt he needed to go to e loo when we left but he nvr say so he waited for us to come back...(see too nice ppl will stress de)...then after tt when we were going off...i think me and qi were both waiting to see if he'll be silly enuf to really send us back coz he used to like qi mahz...then he will keep sending her to places...even if e place is one stop away he will take shuttle bus for one stop then go back..LOL. then i kept laffing at qi...coz ppl too nice will stress de...then she laffed at me back lahz...thinking abt vin and how he carried her laptop all over e sci canteen to buy his food and i still scolded him for it..LOL. somemore she was like saying tt she thinks soon CH will send me..then i was like dunnit...and telling her all e scathing remarks i can think of since i am so da nu ren zhu yi...anyway...then while we were going to e station CH was like asking me which train i'm taking..then me and qi kept laffing...then when we reached e board with e various stations and time needed to reach rite...CH was like saying tt red line will take him 40 mins so he shld take me and qi's line and i really did remark...=x i was like 'erm...well...with this line...it will take u 23 mins to reach raffles place...then u still need to wait for train, change train, take another train' then he was like 'yah...so e time is abt e same' then after some time...qi asked 'so u going e big roundabt way??' then he said 'i'll take e other one lor'...yea! so no guilt on e way home...

seeing them again tmr manz...after exams won't see CH le...so i must pop e qn tmr...e qn is: wld u like to be free labour for my camp?? LOL!!!!!! he can do log fine lahz...i have confidence in his ability to carry things...

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简简单单的伤过 就不算白活

e line was wrong in e previous post with e lyrics...LOL...so i went look for it word by word to put it as my msn personal msg...looked for like half an hr?? and grace supplied e last word..LOL...seriously ahz...if only i'm as hardworking when it comes to studying...

Lo-lee-ta...=)

anyway went out with ting and shan today...great seeing them again...pity qi has to study so nvr meet us...ting looks so diff...LOL..suddenly she's putting make-up and wearing contacts..LOL..but she's still ting. after our lunch of gossiping abt kwek...who shld we run into but kwek!!!!!!! LOL...i saw him then i was staring like 'huh...rub eyes' and it was him in orchard...damn funny...then he stared at me and went 'hey!' then i went 'hi mr kwek!' then he asked me how i'm doing...his eng still as bad ahz..he asked me where i am now..then i said NUS then he asked 'going wat fac' then i got confused..like huh..i'm in le wat...then i was like 'nono..i'm yr 1 le' then he din get it and asked 'going wat fac?' then i said 'nono...i'm in e sch le' then he said 'yah i noe! wat fac' so i resigned to his usage of eng and said 'Arts'. then he was like 'oh yah!' then i realised tt we were blocking e way so i said bye and went off before he said bye...so rude sia..but i can't help seeing him diffly after e whole cca thing

okie...after tt encounter, me and ting had to laff our heads off coz ting dun like kwek and she was so glad sch's over and on e 2nd day of her hols we see kwek...LOL. no choice. then she's glad he din recognize her...coz she's always late for sch..funny lahz

okie...then we cont shopping and stuff...i bought earrings for myself and a gift for bro's bday which is totally belated but i'm seeing him next sun so yah...=)

PS: whoever told me kwek got young wife ahz?? e woman he was with looked completely normal and not young to me...abit younger than him only and kwek was funny...he did e actions for 'this is my....' into kinda hand shove-point thing...but w/o words...so me and e woman just stared at each other...LOL..not knowing wat to say...damn weird. wheeeeee...lucky day..ran into kwek

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曲：林俊傑 | 詞：向月娥/張思爾 | 編：
我們都是泡沫輕輕� ��碰就破
眼淚是愛的火花
昨天就像飛機穿過� ��的窗口
我什麼都沒有 我推開了雙手你予� ��予求
直到你想自由 痛苦的時候我不會� ��躲
就像樹葉甘心為春� ��吹落
只是簡簡單單的愛� ��
我還是我 簡簡單單的愛過
我還是我簡簡單單� ��瘋過
被夢帶走 當故事結束之後
心也喜歡一個人寂� ��

pardon e fan ti zi...e xuxule jian ti zi version not working...dunno y...and i just had to post e lyrics..very nice...=)

SW tmr...after tt...slack time...

sat: going out with ting and gang
sun: teaching ting's sis econs
mon: studying with qi and CH

Life's quite fun actually. i seem to be as slack as always though...maybe tt's y it's fun..wheeeeee. anyway i did some 10 marks MCQs today...=P new exp of my life manz...10 marks econs MCQ...i want to see e answers!! anyway econs was a killer...but it was a fun and challenging killer. don't regret taking e mod. econs forever and ever and ever!! econs!!!!!!!!

okie lahz. go study SW le...=) since i am going out...oh well...fair trade off...i dun want to drag my grade down...esp since for e term paper makes my SW look promising....tmr my strategy is: crap up everything tt's poss.

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econ's over....now it's no longer a component of my academic life...oh well..e exam was damn funny... i tot there was something wrong with my eyes..this was wat i saw:

(4 x 10 marks). No explanation of answers required.

it was 4 MCQ qns...10 mks each...each alphabet is worth 10 mks..do or die. er...unfortunately i may die!! muahahahahha...okie...1 i noe 1 qn 100% correct...1 qn 75% correct, 1 qn 50% correct....e last qn...20% bahz..coz got 5 options i dunno so i just choose one...LOL!!!!!!!!!!!

yepz..then we came to e short qns...which aren't very short...they're like either 10 marks or 20 marks each...zzz. anyway....e qn says 'briefly explain...' (20 marks)...zzzzz...i think biz has a prob with e words they use or something....10 marks to arts students=2pg essay lahz...

anyway so it was over real quick...i din noe how to do e last qn...20 marks...so i just wrote some rubbish...din noe part1 of this other qn too..10 marks so wrote rubbish..LOL...basically i wrote ALOT of rubbish...LOL....e last econs paper of my life was full of my rubbish...but okie lahz...proud tt i cld solve e rest...since no one else seems to have been able to solve them...just pray for bell curve effect to set in or something....hmmm...does biz even have bell curve?? i heard them dun! muahahahahhaha...but they're usu lenient with marks...at least in this mod (since no one seems to know much anyway)...crazy.

SW tmr...i'll need to crap up everything...no way can i memorize all e details by today...damndamndamn...but exams are still fun...=)

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hmmmm...3 more papers to go...soon..in e blink of an eye...econs will be leaving my life. feeling quite sad abt tt...perhaps coz i have always imagined econs as something tt is just there...nvr felt it was precious..nvr felt it was a gift...nvr really thanked God tt i shld be able to appreciate econs...tt i shld have a mind tt allows me to u/s econs...now it's due to leave me...i wish i cld stop time and my exam will nvr come tmr...hence my econs will stay with me forever...but i can't do tt..i'll really miss econs...and i wonder wat i can do.

while i was making my cheatsheet today...i looked at all e econs concepts...they look so familar...so nice...a part of me...this is exactly how i felt when i packed my econs away after i got my award in geog...quietly, i packed my econs away...physically...but i noe tt in my heart...my deepest love will still be econs. will tmr nvr come??

econ...........*sobsob*

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realised tt i haven't blogged anything abt exams...negligence on my part...

cities: it was fun! wrote some stupid joke abt the phallic rep of esplanade...=P in my exam script!! i think it was just mad...but it was gd i think...(i always think myexams are gd..wat's new...i just like crapping) anyway it was a refreshing exp watching e kiasu-ness of uni students..but i am quick to catch up with the general trend as i have proven today

geog1000: fun as well...as usu..my exams are always fun...wrote some rubbish abt my life for exams (my fav qns)...and yepz...i breathed a sigh of relief when there was no fill in e blanks...worthy of note is my gd time mngment today...i spent 30 mins on e first qn (i did e planning for both first and 2nd qn k.)...25 mins on the second...5 mins on MCQ (yah horz..my MCQ always very fast..10 MCQs in 5 mins..not bad)....and spent e next hr on physical...cool. okie...e phy was not as horrendous as i had previously feared.

Next up...econs then SW then lit...can't wait for it to be over...in fact now tt geog's all done...i feel more lighter...i cld fly!!!!!!!!!!!!

okie..i'm mad...plus last nite i cldn't get to sleep till 4...must have been e geog jitters...and when i did fall asleep..i dreamt of rubz and XR..and in my dream...i was calling everyone XR even big beefy indian men..okie...see..i'm mad...and when i woke from e dream...i had no idea y but i felt damn scared...i think i was e general atm of the dream...felt abit surreal...abit oppressive and had a tinge of morbid...

SW...wherefore art thou so thick
thou art unlimited...

*waiting....

PS: i got to see yuan today...he looks damn shag and tired...saw goh too...he waved to me...i waved to him...hope we can be frens...i dun want an enemy like tt...LOL. no pt fighting..waste my time and energy...won't want to cont 5 yrs like tt.

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okie...i must admit...ter is totally mad...story goes like this..rem i said i'll be watching just like heaven with him?? then he said he'll sms me...well he didn't.

so i asked him on msn 2 days later 'so e movie how??' then he was like 'oops'...then my laptop dc-ed so i decided to not go back online (LOL...to assert some pettiness)...

anyway 2 days after tt encounter...i saw him on msn again and he said tt i said after my exams wat...so i relented lahz...LOL...then he asked me this totally weird qn 'wat does it feel like to kiss someone?' then i was like diaoz..so i asked e ppl whom i happened to be talking to aka: grace, huilun and KC.

grace: dunno
huilun says it feels gd esp when u like e guy and tt all kisses will be diff (which was wat i told ter anyway...simple common sense..LOL)
then KC told me e very antithesis of it...tt it's nothing novel...after a first time...it's like 'liddat lor'

anyway after i told ter he was satisfied with e ans..LOL...then he said 'long time nvr see u le' then i said 'yah' then he said 'want go out for e whole day??' then i was like 'er.......define whole day' and he said '24 hrs until morn??' then i was like diaoz...do wat sia...crazy guy...so i said no but until nite time is fine..just let me go back to my bed...

so tt's how weird he got...LOL...anyway i'm a tv addict now...been watching e 11am show on sun for some time...alec su just looks cuter every wk...lalala...e song from e show..also sang as alec su..=P

明天你是否会想起� ��昨天你写的日记
明天你是否还惦记� ��曾经最爱哭的你
老师们都已想不起� ��猜不出问题的你
我也是偶然翻相片� ��才想起同桌的你
谁娶了多愁善感的� ��　谁看了你的日� �
谁把你的长发盘起� ��谁给你做的嫁衣
你从前总是很小心� ��问我借半块橡皮
你也曾无意中说起� ��喜欢和我在一起
那时候天总是很蓝� ��日子总过的太慢
你总说毕业遥遥无� ��　转眼就各分东� �
谁遇到多愁善感的� ��　谁安慰爱哭的� �
谁看了我给你写的� ��　谁把它丢在风� �
从前的日子都远去� ��我也将有我的妻
我也会给她看相片� ��给她讲同桌的你
谁娶了多愁善感的� ��　谁看了你的日� �
谁把你的长发盘起� ��谁给你做的嫁衣� �啦...

it has a nice catchy tune...i want to talk to qi...where is she??

*i want to study...but..how???

PS: talking to ed now...his msn pic has him, shao, da and dan...reminds me of e gd old days esp seeing him da and dan...sigh...i miss them

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exams start tmr...erm..i'm spending my time watching tv/vcds?? watched like 6 hrs of tv yest...had a 2 hrs nap...woke up at 12noon and slept last nite at 2...hence...tt makes it 14-6-2=6...then minus e time i spent eating...playing neopets...tt's abt 45 mins spent studying..well done!! *clap clap*...LOL...how?!!!! think i really must leave my house to study...oh well...anyway...here's from e movie i watched yest: Save e last dance..=)

okie..i must admit tt i am rather ill-prepared for exams..considering tt for my paper tmr i haven't finished reading my lect notes...zzz...for my sw..i read nothing so far..for ge1101...yah..i did tt half tt i did few days ago...same for econs...and hmmmmm...i forgot tt lit existed..LOL...damn.

somehow i keep forgetting abt e existence of sw and lit..for some obscure reason...damn damn...i better write a note to myself and paste it on my table 'u are taking sw and lit'...sigh...someone save me from all this! *hums to herself as she skips happily away*

Artist: Athena Cage Lyrics
Song: All or Nothing Lyrics

Heres the chance of life
Get ready, set, fly
High
Above the fear of you mind
Go for it its hit or miss
Too late for you to quit
You gotta show them how bad you really want this

Live your dreams
It's not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the c.r.e.a.m
On your hopes you must lean
From your fears
You have to win yourself
It's all or nothing
Give your everything

You are what you believe
You've got to bring the heat
Set the pace
Competition: take the lead
This is it all eyes on you
So stay on point and prove
That you deserve what's long overdue

Live your dreams
It's not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the c.r.e.a.m
On your hopes you must lean
From your fears
You have to win yourself
It's all or nothing
Give your everything

My heart is still recovering
From Heartbreak of another kind
I'm still drying my tears
Getting over my own fears
In my life
I wanna make sure this time
That I'm strong enough
To give it my all

Live your dreams
It's not as hard as it may seem
You got to work to get the c.r.e.a.m
On your hopes you must lean
From your fears
You have to win yourself

It's all or nothing
Give your everything
Live your dreams

Live your dreams
It's not as hard as it may seem
(no, no)
You gotta work to get the c.r.e.a.m
On your hopes you must lean
From your fears
You have to win yourself
It's all or nothing
(I say it's all or nothing)
Give your everything

Live your dreams
(You gotta live your dreams)
It's not as hard as it may seem
You gotta work to get the c.r.e.a.m
On your hopes you must lean
From your fears
You have to win yourself
It's all or nothing
Give your everything

You know you've got to live your dreams
So don't you be afraid
Sacrifice
take the lead
It's your time to shine
Please believe

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my day...

started with qi being late in studying with me...so i sat there studying alone at e library for like an hr before she showed up...when she did...i felt so restless i walked everywhere ard e central lending lib...after tt my stomach was growling..so we went to Han's...nice food there..they had peach slices for desert today..and clam chowder..yumz...then qi had her usual...

then qi's fren came to join us..got a shock...LOL..coz he's quite shuai wor...then he's damn funny also...quite a lamer + joker...much braver than luis who hides behind qi...at least this fren din get traumatised by me...he just keeps smiling at my stupid jokes...then i poked fun of him coz he really believed qi when she said tt she eats leaves?? and we poke fun of luis...luis is always funny...

after tt..we realised tt e lib no space for us le..so we went to coffeebean...which luckily had nice music today...and i realised tt i study better at coffee bean..since i can't poss walk ard and ard e coffee house..zzz..so i studied half my econs mod...and half my GE1101E...LOL!!!! which explains y i'm happy...

another reason y i'm happy is coz qi's fren can draw quite well..those cute cute icons kinda thing...(he drew bomberman) so maybe he can help design FOC shirt or flyer...(i trust guys who can wear pink and caps and look gd)...plus! since he's from computing he can put watever he draws/or draw it with software!! (wonder if he noes how to make webbies too)...so i found a new target for FOC recruitment..plus! he does volunteer work with kids...means he can shout..hence he can be councillor as well..=D (i can be so evil)

third reason y i'm happy..qi and her fren said they'll go watch budak pantai concert with me..LOL...so amazing i asked qi 'so u want come for budak pantai concert not??' then she said 'erm...' with a dun want lahz look on her face...then her fren said 'e YMCA one rite??' then i got a shock..like diaoz..they so famous tt he also noe?? then i said yah...then i said xmas concert..and he said 'blue moo??' then i was like 'YAH!!!!!!!!' then he said 'let's go lahz'...then i was looking at qi..like if she say no so weird lahz..i go with her fren...then qi resigned to her fate and said okie...LOL. yeayeayea..concert!!

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Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others High-spirited, enthusiastic, and exuberant, you love adventure, change, exploring new territory, and are not happy confined to the same safe, familiar, secure little world all the time. You have a strong restlessness and yearning for something greater than anything you've yet experienced, and you often live in your dreams and visions for the future. You tend to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else and you like to keep moving, either literally or figuratively. Idealistic and optimistic, you always expect something better ahead. You love to have a goal, something to aim for, but once you achieve it you are on to something else. You are ever on the lookout for new opportunities and you are a gambler, willing to take risks and to break new ground. The possibility of discovering something new is what makes life interesting for you. You have great faith in life and bounce back quickly from disappointment and failure. Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation You are a person who thrives on challenge, and you often feel that you must battle your way through life, depending upon no one and nothing but your own strength, intelligence, and courage. You believe in being totally honest, true to oneself and one's own vision and convictions, even if that means standing alone. Honesty, integrity, personal honor, and authenticity are your gods, and you have no sympathy for weakness of character in others. (hey..i do have sympathy k...)

 

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in view of e recent turn of events...i shall summarize some things

1. i am studying (ok..only a lil but better than nothing)

2. me and ter are fine..in fact we decided to watch 'just like heaven' together...are we just frens?? i dunno..are we more than frens?? i also dunno..LOL..

3. rubin proclaims tt she detests muggers coz they are 'weak' but well.....dun forget tt xr is a mugger...relationships are weird...

4. ting broke up...tt's like just sad...they seemed such a perfect match and he was like so involved with her family...oh well..lotsa things can happen

5. getting back SW term paper tmr..exciting..=) hope i do well...in view of my current bad results...i hope for an A+ to pull me up..LOL..no choice.

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back to norm...back to norm....me and ter are back to normal!!!!!!! for now at least...

wat brought it back to norm?? a can of coke..LOL...ironically while e topic of globalisation is killing me...e most popular metaphor of globalisation, coca cola has saved me..LOL...

e story of a can of coke..

Kitty, a 19 yr old was looking at e can of coke on e table top...engaged in an internal monologue..shld i drink e coke?? will i get high blood pressure?? (coz according to a med report in US tt is disseminated thru ICT infocomtech..deduced from the high-end equipment prob manufactured in Bangladesh...she will get high blood pressure from drinking too much coke)

Hence, she turned to Terry who is highly versed in the biological sciences (thru imported txtbks and exams tt are from Cambridge) for some advice and he told her 'DRINK! u are still young! just go shopping more'

Hence, they started crapping once again...

NOTE: i think my tutor is right..coke invested billions on advertising...so much so tt e product is so differentiated...i still rather drink coke than pepsi though they are technically e same..damn

*theories from my 2 geog modules as well as econs...LOL..did like 3 readings today...hmmm..from a social work prespective...i am addicted and my social functioning has been affected adversely..counselling is required..maybe rehab is in order...

er...left out lit...hmmmm..

Coca-Cola 'Turn up e feeling' personification???

LOL..nice try.

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my day yest:

i started e day being late in meeting grace..LOL..and rubz, shaz and matt were even later in meeting us..so we went cine cafe cartel...they have this cool set meal thing tt's only $7.50...plus it has ice cream...yumyum..and cheap as well...cartel will see me more often as of now...forgot to check out their sets for e other days...

anyway..i must say tt i am rather creative having invented some story abt a cat-shaped and designed car..LOL...i've tot of how to refine my story as well..see..e car got run over rite...then 2 ovals ard it are coz e police din noe how to open up e car to save e victim..so they believed tt such a uniquely shaped object must be a UFO...so they drew luminous rings ard it such tt e aliens can come and retrieve their fren...LOL

anyway it was gd fun teasing rubz abt xr..LOL..now we have to agree to everything rubz say in case xr boxes us...no choice! anyway matt and grace quite pei bahz...they both said e other is humorous..LOL...okie..tt's all they said..but still..LOL..better than nothing...wheeee...

okie..then me and grace went kbox..LOL..okie lahz..grace nvr really sing tt many sad songs and i'm glad tt she seems to want to move on..gd sign..=) jiayou k!! anyway as usu..kbox was fun...i just love music...

okie...so i got home..tried to study but ended up crapping with matt on msn...damn funny...we were gossipping abt ppl...started with him telling me to check out seating arrangements for exams..then i told him he's so lucky..same rm as someone i want to be same rm as..then he so kpo ask me who..so i told him yuan lorz...LOL...so he commented tt sch got a lot of B_ _s. so we ended up gossiping abt e invisible one...aka goh..LOL..so funny...

after tt...i ended up telling bug abt how worried i am tt goh will not contribute to my camp...then at first me and bug were still joking abt either beating him up then bug pointed out tt maybe goh is so unenthu coz of some reason..upon reflection...i think i noe e reason..he has no frens in e cca...so i have decided to be his fren..LOL...although i prob can't be his gd fren..since val doesn't really like him..and matt for some reason seems to detest him...funny..nvr knew tt matt has anger within him..oh well..for e sake of my camp...i shalt try to restore things to how they were like on e first nite...

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doing quite badly in my opinion..sigh...in e range of B for geog...tt's like bad coz i'm gonna major in it...can only hope tt my finals pull me up..

meanwhile..i'm rather worried abt meng..his exam tmr..think i'll miss him..today's our last session..kinda feel like his sister..maybe coz i have no siblings...anyway he really is a funny guy...hohoho...and today e As started..hope these kids do well too..=) maybe tt's y i'm doing badly these 2 days..coz i gave all my luck to them le!! just rem!! LOL...but it's okie..they all promised to return me my luck by 19th..=p (as u can tell i really believe in my inbuilt, natural luck..well it has brought me kinda far academically...no choice! hope it serves them well..

think i must study this time round...sigh...okie lahz! i shall..whoever said i dunno how to study/can't study...shall see a diff me!! muahahahahha (i think i'm e only one who says tt i cannot study..oh well..prove myself wrong then..weird)

geography!! i love thee so yet thou deserts me!! (talking abt geog)..LOL...

ilovegeog.ilovegeog.ilovegeog...will tt help??

*looking fwd to geog exam*

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From www.datingdiversions.com [got it from YL's blog]

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grace was telling me tt her A said tt he is like a cat...and when a cat sees a mouse...e cat just wants to play with e mouse for a while...before e cat moves on to a new plaything.

tt got me thinking...i used to have a similar tot abt myself...perhaps subconsciously i just go ard making ppl fall for me only to reject them...maybe tt's y i nvr seem to like or rather..i shld say accept anyone who likes me. i am always e one chasing after elusive mice maybe..when mice come to me...maybe i do subconsciously just dally with them a little and move on.

MAYBE.
A mouse may be hurt once, but perhaps a cat will nvr be able to break out of the cycle.

anyway i received a confirmation to my suspicions via kailing today...apparently vege broke up. he is still alive and asking ppl to go jogging with him as his nick?? tt's contrary to my expectations of him becoming yao shi yao huo shld he break. well..ppl do change. in vege....i saw e greatest change tt can ever happen to a person in just e space of 2 yrs.

[i]i probably recognize him no more~[/i]

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okie..cont.

e images from my dream:

[b]Flowers [/b]
Flowers symbolize beauty and safety. They are also symbols of the inner feminine self.
To dream of fresh, brightly colored flowers growing in a garden, is a lucky omen of great personal happiness.

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House
If you dream about living in or visiting somebody else's house (whether or not you know the house owner), the meaning is linked to the condition of the home. If it was an elegant house or mansion, this is a positive omen that you will someday leave your home for a better place and you will be lucky in life and finance.

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Race
Dreaming that you are in a race signifies that others are envious of your achievements and want what you have for themselves. If you win the race, your dream means that you will overcome your competitors. (looks like i am ever willing to lose to just tt one special person but not anyone else...)

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Jogging
To dream that you are jogging, suggests that you are proceeding through life in a steady pace. You are not really taking any action toward changes. (but things still turned out well rite?? as in i still beat like almost everyone)

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Court shoes
To dream that you are wearing inappropriate shoes for the activity at hand, suggests that your progress and path in life will be challenged because you are not well-prepared. It may also indicate that you are heading in the wrong direction and need to reevaluate your goals. (however i was required to..maybe it menas tt it's necessary for me to make e mistakes..)
To dream that you are wearing high heels, represents femininity and glamour. You feel confident and self-assured.

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Ask Out
If you dream that somebody asks you out, it foretells popularity with the opposite sex (LOL.)

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Play
If you dream of watching a play in a theatre, one of your male friends is interested in a more romantic relationship with you. You may date him for social reasons, even if you don't like him that way. (HMMMM)

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Popcorn
If the popcorn in your dream was fresh, crisp and tasty, it predicts love, good health and the means to enjoy them.

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Stain
To see a stain in your dream, represents a superficial and fixable mistake in your life.

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Dirty
If you dream of being in dirty or messy surroundings, it is a positive omen meaning whatever is worrying you will soon come to an orderly conclusion.

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Phone
If you can't reach someone on the phone in a dream, you must listen to your inner voice more closely for your life to move on the way it should.

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LOL..told u it's a gd dream..now i just have to listen to myself more...=) so many gd omens of happiness..wheeee

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LOL...had e nicest dream last nite..it started like some tv serial...okie..we see this nice jap looking rm with wooden walls and two ppl kneeling on those cushions with green tea in front of them. e mother asked e son whether he has found anyone he likes...and e guy says no and e mother started suggesting this gal and she asked if they have gotten closer with
implicit refs as to whether they had sex and e guy was like very adamant tt they are far from tt stage.

next scene, rubz, me, meng (my tuition student..think i teach him too much le..until i even dream of him..at least i'm not tutoring him in e dream) okie! so me and rubz and meng signed up for this camp thing tt takes place at this super big and beautiful villa. Well...me and meng went..and strangely all e other participants are gals but me and meng nvr notice when we were there...anyway...e regulation was tt we were to be in sports attire plus court shoes (dun rem wat meng was wearing). so we all assembled. then this guy who is e guy from the rm scene tt i started with; came to meet us and he was supposed to orientate us to e place by
bringing us for a jog...and he said tt anyone can overtake him if we're able to and he also told his frens to time us and we shld try to finish e run in 1.5 mins...hence...we started running in our court shoes...

when we started, i was at e back and i saw gals starting to hop and take off their shoes which was funny..anyway, i dunno y but in e dream i was jogging so slowly but i ended up in front..as in first gal..then e guy was still in front of me..but i soon caught up...but! obviously i cannot overtake him..coz i dunno where to lead e ppl to run to..LOL..so i just ran slightly behind him/almost next to him as respect...it was a damn long run..with
tons of staircases and corridors. anyway he finally led us to his frens who were supposed to take e timing..and we ended there...me and him clocked a timing of 1.3 dunno how also..e run felt like it was 1km or something..LOL

well..anyway after tt...i realised tt wow..he's quite tall when he stands next to me...then everyone funally came back out looking like they're gonna collaspe...then...e guy led us down this staircase where we can see e field (scene from my pri sch field..LOL) and meng was still missing then...then me and tt guy were talking...and this is e interesting part.
as a char in my dream, i didn't noe tt he is e son of e owner of e villa..but in my dream, as e omniscent narrator i knew..LOL. anyway we were talking...abt alot of things lehz..dun rem them now..then he asked me out for dinner..=) then i said 'erm..i'll prob be eating with meng and rubin' then i added 'rubin is supposed to come for this camp too, but she'll only
arrive for e play later' then he said 'ok lor.' then i said 'i'm sure u can ask someone else' then he asked this woman standing near e foot of e staircase...then i said 'u noe u can join us too?' then he said okie and decided to join us..LOL

so we reached e threatre...and he bought popcorn for us to share and 2 chicken wings in a box for each of us. he needed to go do something, so me and meng went in and on e way in.. i spilled some popcorn...then meng found a row of 3 tt's empty and sat down...and i realised tt e seat which i was supposed to take had a food sauce stain on it and all e seats there
were like blue cushioned with a footrest thing and all were kinda dirty and stained..so i tried to wipe it away...and only succeeded to a certain extent. so i just sat down disgustedly.

then while i was not noticing, coz i was looking at e stage which was lighted in red and blue and had white cloth draped all ard with still female figures. and e narrator was saying something abt boey kim cheng..think it was either his play or inspiration is drawn from his works..LOL...then some gal sat down on e seat next to me..and since she seemed to noe e gal
to her other side, i told meng tt we shall move..so we found a seat near just a row before e last row. e seats there were nicer..e typical red cushiony seats at cinemas so me and meng sat there.i wanted so sms e guy to tell him where we are..but dunno..my phone was quite screwed up, plus i dun rem his name...nor do i rem if i keyed in his number coz he
did tell us e number before e run in case we get lost. so i cldn't sms him nor cld i sms rubz coz my phone was so screwed up tt i cannot scroll by keying in aplabets somehow..all my names were jumbled up. at this pt in time...my dad woke me up!! lol.i wanted to go back to sleep and have dinner with e guy. =(

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LOL..nice rite?? i can even dream of romantic love stories. shld be a script writer..=) i've already tot of how to root it in reality and write an editted and expanded version of it! LOL..maybe after exams...e prob is...serials like this sound weird in eng.and my chi cmi right now..dun think i can write an entire script in chi..LOL...plus...no chi input software..zzz

anyway e guy is not like super cute...and too super tall..but oh well..nice =) think he's quite a nice dream guy to have..lalala

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few things to say..in no order of importance:

1. listening to e hei se mao yi tt bro sent me now...quite a nice song...(though i can't decipher e words since jay chou sang it..will need to search for e lyrics later). sounds quite sentimental and sad though..bro noes my taste...really lucky to have justin...our most platonic happiness is just amazing...=)

 

2. talking to KC now..finally e assignment is over..no more pressure...he's currently grumbling tt he did e grp work himself till 6am this morn nvr zzz...KCKCKC...too competitive for his own gd perhaps. i cheered him up by telling him tt he can start planning wat qns to ask e viet guy next tut to shoot him down...and he had to say tt i noe him well.he's just predictable. too predictable le!! his brain only has 'no. 1' on it and now i am ego-ly saying i'm smart. and we're happily joking ard now..=)

3. went out with qi yest...so fun!!! bought a xmas cd and a bag...e bag's from charles and keith..wanted a white one but they ran out of it and e one on display had a scratch so i got e beigh version instead...=) so nice hanging out with qi..miss e gals...shan says she miss me too...lol..can't wait for dec 2nd to roll ard coz we're meeting up then...anyway me and qi realised tt we're getting old!! we took like 2 hrs just to walk in heeren building..LOL!! old le. and we took like 2.5 hrs to walk far east...anyway qi bought a skirt...i set out wanting to buy corrinne may cd, a bracelet and a watch but i failed to buy any of those and added onto my collection things i have tons of..lalalalala...

4. won't blog this in case e person in qn reads it..can always ask me.

5. and ppl..i think from now till 9th i won't be free..tuition..no choice!!! =)

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was looking at sky's msn display pic just a while ago...it's like a cross section of his life...with rugby...makes me think of something...i think for me, sky and many others, cca represents a micro organisation in which we can feel a sense of belonging. It's like y ppl join st gangs i guess..to feel that they belong somewhere..

looking at some neighbourhood sec schs/certain JCs...we see these students playing bball with shirts tucked out...we hear bands making e hell of a din...but instead of just shaking their heads, adults shld start thinking that it is something we feel for, be it music, basketball...at least it is a constructive use of our time learning and improving, honing our skills for something rather than how to escape the police.

just thinking abt how many adults i noe like to complain tt schs are noisy entities. students are unkempt when they are playing sports..when i become a teacher...i will advocate a noisy sch...=) [it'll be e noisiest in Sg]

sigh...i'm praying tt today will be over soon...coz e hw assignmt is due on fri..after tt i can talk normally to KC again w/o him asking me for answers...just awkward...coz it's grp work...i can't poss dish out my ans to him..will need to think abt e other members of my grp mahz..it'll be unfair tt i dish out their hard work like tt...doesn't KC ever feel tired?? competing as such..to be number 1 and thinking tt number 2 is nothing?? haiyoh...i better not talk so much too...still thinking abt how to right my B for lit...and chian was telling me tt he wishes to get Bs and i am trying to put it right..zzz

maybe...wat i pursue is just prestige.

okie lahz! i noe e diff le..i want to do well..but i can't make myself give up on other things (just like wat leongster used to say..i'm just over-committed). wait till i tell leongster my plans for next sem...i think she will like throw me off a cliff..LOL.

i noe tt i have e strength within me to complete all tt i set out to do...all i have to do is to harness it. okie ahz! i go study now...wheeeeee........going out later!!!!!!

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