hmm
03.28.05 (4:33 am) [edit]
dearest everyone...
i noe tt i'm not e most frequent of bloggers recently. just start with a shout-out to some ppl...
to everyone: my bday coming!!!!
to da (who doesn't read this): i love u =)
to bro cw: cheer up...life rox
to ting: i love u too...dun worry galfren...u will do well..dun stress!
to shan(who has found someone to love her): all e best at james cook.....i'm sure tt u can forge a path for urself...
to sis jae: no fear...ur sister is here...when e world misunderstands u...i will stand firm in my belief..and no...u are not psychotic...at least not as psychotic as me...and i believe u.
to qi: ur life seems e least turmulous of us 4...lol...cheers to ur peaceful life
to lunny: i am e expert of forbidden r/s...any advice dun find me...i crash and burn...lol...but all e best and dun let ur parents depict ur life totally....u will indeed learn and grow =)
to everyone again:
i got 3 wishes this yr coz i'm a greedy pig...greedy pig says hi! any bookings shld pref be made a wk in advance =) busy these 2 wks....
i want to get a cd-player which has radio then can put in my rm! argh
after working for these few months...i'm still really poor due to my shopaholic nature...wonder how those things add up...extraordinary
i'm mad. insane. yet lovably so...lalala...weird happenings in my life...as usu my love life will prove to be interesting ;p lalala...anyway can't believe it...i'm going back to sch for my bday so tt i can see ahem...lol....oh well...=) no choice.
i noe tt i'm not e most frequent of bloggers recently. just start with a shout-out to some ppl...
to everyone: my bday coming!!!!
to da (who doesn't read this): i love u =)
to bro cw: cheer up...life rox
to ting: i love u too...dun worry galfren...u will do well..dun stress!
to shan(who has found someone to love her): all e best at james cook.....i'm sure tt u can forge a path for urself...
to sis jae: no fear...ur sister is here...when e world misunderstands u...i will stand firm in my belief..and no...u are not psychotic...at least not as psychotic as me...and i believe u.
to qi: ur life seems e least turmulous of us 4...lol...cheers to ur peaceful life
to lunny: i am e expert of forbidden r/s...any advice dun find me...i crash and burn...lol...but all e best and dun let ur parents depict ur life totally....u will indeed learn and grow =)
to everyone again:
i got 3 wishes this yr coz i'm a greedy pig...greedy pig says hi! any bookings shld pref be made a wk in advance =) busy these 2 wks....
i want to get a cd-player which has radio then can put in my rm! argh
after working for these few months...i'm still really poor due to my shopaholic nature...wonder how those things add up...extraordinary
i'm mad. insane. yet lovably so...lalala...weird happenings in my life...as usu my love life will prove to be interesting ;p lalala...anyway can't believe it...i'm going back to sch for my bday so tt i can see ahem...lol....oh well...=) no choice.
bleahz
03.22.05 (3:14 am) [edit]
You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument
You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.
You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.
At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.
tt's wat this webbie said abt me...cool huh...i'll comment later...
i hate...
03.16.05 (6:57 am) [edit]
i hate being reliant on anyone..and i noe tt i am gradually relying too much on u. i want to stop...but can i?? i hate being a leech on ur life. hate it. i just think tt somehow we will nvr totally click coz u are so driven and i'm so slack. sometimes i just want to watch e world go by. u want to e stop e world in it's path and divert it... yet sometimes i too dive into action. e diff is tt u are so consistent in ur purpose and i am so fluctuating.
Perhaps to save each other from further misery...i shld just walk away and leave u be...for i noe ur life will be organised and purposeful. Mine. i want it to be of splashes of colours..not e str lines u offer to draw for me. Carpe Diem. i want to live for e moment...u want to live each day as if it will constitute a future...a forever or at least a 40 yrs. an initial attraction will prob cause e rift to drive us apart. then all i can say is oh well. just let me sleep and pretend none of these happened.
Signing off, nitez. They were right. Opposites attract...but i was right too...e 2 opposing poles nvr did meet as the remain at opposite ends of e Earth
Perhaps to save each other from further misery...i shld just walk away and leave u be...for i noe ur life will be organised and purposeful. Mine. i want it to be of splashes of colours..not e str lines u offer to draw for me. Carpe Diem. i want to live for e moment...u want to live each day as if it will constitute a future...a forever or at least a 40 yrs. an initial attraction will prob cause e rift to drive us apart. then all i can say is oh well. just let me sleep and pretend none of these happened.
Signing off, nitez. They were right. Opposites attract...but i was right too...e 2 opposing poles nvr did meet as the remain at opposite ends of e Earth
e perfect 15 cm.
03.16.05 (5:29 am) [edit]
thanks to ms yy for her supplying of e perfect 15 cm height diff thing...apparently a 15 cm height diff is perfect for couples...not tt i can fully comprehend y...according to yy...15 cm is just right for e gal to rest her head comfortably on e guy's shoulder. guess wat...there really is someone who's exactly 15 cm taller than me. =)
oh well. crapz...
anyway...how are u ppl doing?? Mr Wong...i noe u got NS but can u like speak to me?????
LOL...and my dear bro...Mr Tay...oi! i noe u busy writing music but wld u like to speak to me too?? lol
really free now...shld i get a new job or just wait for scholarship interviews?? (assuming i get them) idiotic...sianz... but corn rox...my fav character referee. =) definitely.
oh well. crapz...
anyway...how are u ppl doing?? Mr Wong...i noe u got NS but can u like speak to me?????
LOL...and my dear bro...Mr Tay...oi! i noe u busy writing music but wld u like to speak to me too?? lol
really free now...shld i get a new job or just wait for scholarship interviews?? (assuming i get them) idiotic...sianz... but corn rox...my fav character referee. =) definitely.
wat am i doing
03.14.05 (11:59 pm) [edit]
a few simple qns to myself:
Do i still love corn?
Yes, very much in fact. Just tt e love has to take a diff form. by leaving, i am actually putting in more effort than in clinging on. Last nite i asked if he will be my char referee for this scholarship and he said Sure, that's e least i can do for u. He doesn't owe me anything..doesn't he realise tt?? because he believes tt he owes me something and tries to repay me...i feel tt i owe him even more and repay him again. it's an endless cycle. i love him but i have converted tt energy into one of endless giving. Endless. NO ONE can stop it i guess...perhaps not even myself.
Da??
Uncertain. Fluctuates...but when i do love him...it's so intense it usually scalds me. tt ain't too gd huh. Fix ur pc dumbass
Ter?
Perhaps e best match in this grp of seemingly mismatched, unlikely candidates. Yet, something is holding me back. not even sure if i love him. Yet, on sat....my heart called my bluff. when WJ asked if i liked ter...i said no, immediately, my heart called my bluff...but like is not love. i dunno. He's sweet and all...but i just feel like something is lacking. But i dunno wat. Ter...an overachiever. Doing better than me in almost everything...can u believe it?? Perhaps i'm just not used to a guy who's better than me. Perhaps...i'm just afraid this ain't for real. Perhaps.....i am not in love with him but with e notion of love. and perhaps...most of all...i'm afraid to find out e ans to my qns......
Yupz...as usual my love life is a roller coaster ride...but wth...maybe i just attract trouble in tt sector. i wonder how all my classmates are doing with their results. i love them. all my frens...left some mark on me in my life. taught me acceptance, concern, care, e beauty of diversity and of coz to live life to e fullest free from e shackles of society. i love my class....so much i wish i nvr had to leave them and move on. they make my school life worthwhile...maybe tt's y i'm not too enthusiastic abt uni life. nothing can beat A05. =)
Nothing.
OK...uni. trying for some scholarships...then i'll just pray and see wat happens.
Got my digicam...fujifilm E500. totally cool cam. i love it.
Teaching stint over...end up feeling drained by e adult world. oh no. wat if i nvr fit into e adult world?? but oh well...gonna have to keep trying =)
Cheerios to bravery and tenacity of purpose and living life to e fullest. May my days be filled with happiness
BTW...it's my bday month..wooohooooo
Do i still love corn?
Yes, very much in fact. Just tt e love has to take a diff form. by leaving, i am actually putting in more effort than in clinging on. Last nite i asked if he will be my char referee for this scholarship and he said Sure, that's e least i can do for u. He doesn't owe me anything..doesn't he realise tt?? because he believes tt he owes me something and tries to repay me...i feel tt i owe him even more and repay him again. it's an endless cycle. i love him but i have converted tt energy into one of endless giving. Endless. NO ONE can stop it i guess...perhaps not even myself.
Da??
Uncertain. Fluctuates...but when i do love him...it's so intense it usually scalds me. tt ain't too gd huh. Fix ur pc dumbass
Ter?
Perhaps e best match in this grp of seemingly mismatched, unlikely candidates. Yet, something is holding me back. not even sure if i love him. Yet, on sat....my heart called my bluff. when WJ asked if i liked ter...i said no, immediately, my heart called my bluff...but like is not love. i dunno. He's sweet and all...but i just feel like something is lacking. But i dunno wat. Ter...an overachiever. Doing better than me in almost everything...can u believe it?? Perhaps i'm just not used to a guy who's better than me. Perhaps...i'm just afraid this ain't for real. Perhaps.....i am not in love with him but with e notion of love. and perhaps...most of all...i'm afraid to find out e ans to my qns......
Yupz...as usual my love life is a roller coaster ride...but wth...maybe i just attract trouble in tt sector. i wonder how all my classmates are doing with their results. i love them. all my frens...left some mark on me in my life. taught me acceptance, concern, care, e beauty of diversity and of coz to live life to e fullest free from e shackles of society. i love my class....so much i wish i nvr had to leave them and move on. they make my school life worthwhile...maybe tt's y i'm not too enthusiastic abt uni life. nothing can beat A05. =)
Nothing.
OK...uni. trying for some scholarships...then i'll just pray and see wat happens.
Got my digicam...fujifilm E500. totally cool cam. i love it.
Teaching stint over...end up feeling drained by e adult world. oh no. wat if i nvr fit into e adult world?? but oh well...gonna have to keep trying =)
Cheerios to bravery and tenacity of purpose and living life to e fullest. May my days be filled with happiness
BTW...it's my bday month..wooohooooo
so long nvr blog le
03.01.05 (4:35 am) [edit]
so long nvr blog le...
realised tt everyone needs me more than i need them (including my parents) scary tot ain't it.
i dunno who to trust in e sch....sis just exposed me to e world of politics...and raj din help by telling me tt sis seems a deep one....so confused. horrible world of adults.
fri at 230pm i getting results all e best to me manz. =) hope i get all As!! lalala...
sigh...teaching is tiring...but i guess it's e highest-paying job avail rite now and quite fun
ter is a real nice guy...but he scares me sometimes...with his overt sweetness and desire to intro me to his parents...lol...i'm not even his gf...zzz...not even best frens
had a great chat with raj today...he told me stuff he nvr told any of his best buds...me and him are just normal frens...think ppl just like telling me stuff...i'm a great counsellor....somehow ppl just want to tell me stuff...=)
thurs kbox...rox!!!!!!! i love kbox
realised tt everyone needs me more than i need them (including my parents) scary tot ain't it.
i dunno who to trust in e sch....sis just exposed me to e world of politics...and raj din help by telling me tt sis seems a deep one....so confused. horrible world of adults.
fri at 230pm i getting results all e best to me manz. =) hope i get all As!! lalala...
sigh...teaching is tiring...but i guess it's e highest-paying job avail rite now and quite fun
ter is a real nice guy...but he scares me sometimes...with his overt sweetness and desire to intro me to his parents...lol...i'm not even his gf...zzz...not even best frens
had a great chat with raj today...he told me stuff he nvr told any of his best buds...me and him are just normal frens...think ppl just like telling me stuff...i'm a great counsellor....somehow ppl just want to tell me stuff...=)
thurs kbox...rox!!!!!!! i love kbox